what you say about in the documentary and in the book you're a hundred percent right it was great for Tommy this tape because he's a rock star he's the drummer in Motley Crew for me it really did undermine your career it did it did sort of change the the perception of who Pamela Anderson was yeah I guess I mean it wasn't a a positive thing it was it definitely took its took its toll on the relationship it took its toll on um my career and people are still capitalizing off that that was was the shocking part I remember seeing this ham and Tommy thing on Hulu or some advertisement for it and I thought what the hell is this no one called me no one else doing it no oh no nothing to do with me I saw you say that in the Netflix special that you won't look at it and I don't blame you I wouldn't look at it either do you ever try to contact uh I know Seth Rogen was one of the producers he's a a very reasonable guy did you ever say so yeah I tried to reach out now I felt like I just felt kind of run over with that one I think um I don't think they really portrayed Tommy or I positively I don't know I mean I only heard that it was a very shallow kind of representation of of us but you know of that time but I don't know why I mean I wish they would have called well had they called maybe you could have said look I'm not comfortable with this or maybe you could have even said hey well maybe we can collaborate on my life story yeah maybe I mean I don't think I probably would have been involved because especially about that subject matter I just why why bring it up again and you know bringing it up again but I just felt that's why you know Brandon's the one who produced the film the documentary he was like Mom you just need to tell your story because I just want to make sure that you get to tell your story you know like write this book and and then the documentary I just said here I haven't killed anybody here's the keys to my archives and you can read my Diaries everything I said let's just let it all out