I think she's perceived one way and I think her soul and her heart are very different than than what her perception was and I think that's where I may be connected to her the most we're we're actually more fragile and when we need to fight we fight for ourselves or for those we love or for our our art but I think deep down there's a there's a fragility that I identified with and a loneliness and do you think it's harder or easier sort of now I don't know I mean I didn't live then I guess hard in different ways easy in different ways I think for I think what might be fascinating to people is to realize what was still happening then what you can't imagine was actually happening uh you know the different the different things she she went through you know she she was celebrated as one of the most wonderful artists and she also had food thrown at her and insulted and lied about um so I don't know she must have felt she must have felt very alone