uh yeah I've struggled in all the interviews I've done sorry we're so late I've done like a million interviews um I've struggled to put it into words um for me just the circumstances obviously the way uh the last three years have gone uh has not been uh the way I wanted to represent myself the way I wanted to represent this team um and then to have the kind of walls closing in on you know there's a definite end to the the my time to get to drive this historic car and then to find a way to win um while those walls are kind of closing in to me is uh really really special it almost makes the last three years worth it but I would have much rather won before now but um just it's just been so hard and that's the way it should be the cup series is really really hard uh but to get the Wood Brothers 100th win to get my very first cup win uh it's just it's really really hard to put in words I cried my whole cool down lap I've never cried after a race win ever in my life uh never even thought about crying after a race win but uh this one just means a lot