intro [Music] today is the first day of school and I GRWM am quite nervous I feel like I shouldn't be drinking this coffee but I'm just a rebel I only have one iners class today luckily I know one person which is better than that does anyone else before class starts look at who's in the roster and not to give soccer Vibes but just to prepare yourself for who you might see or who you might want to talk to even if I don't know the person I just need to know like okay these are the people in my class I bought a new Gua over the weekend I like this more than my steel gacha it has so many curves that you can use all around your body I recently switched back to fashion merchandising I did fashion design last semester it was fun learning how to sew and constantly challenging myself but I thought about it during the summer and I just felt that it didn't align with my future aspirations after taking a few classes I respect those who are taking fashion design as a major it's a lot of work and it's very timec consuming I really like this tool I use this more at night especially when I'm watching a drama or a movie oh my gosh is anyone else going to the 17 concert in November because I am I heard it was a battle to get the tickets and I'm glad that my friends secured the tickets and now we're going to see7 and I'm so excited I'm sad because junan and June aren't going June was the reason I got into 17 was because I watched his sea drama the actress from when I fly towards you was in it so I watched it and then that's how I got into 17 I don't know if it's a good idea to be filming get ready with me on the first day because I talk a lot and I don't want to be late ever since high school but more so entering College I have been feeling that pressure to know what I want and in reality I don't think I'll truly ever know what I want not to be cheesy but I just want to live a life that I won't regret what is up with me this is why this is why it was a bad idea to watch our times yesterday that's a good movie guys this my first time watching it yesterday I thought it was going to be a very cliche drama but oh my gosh it's so much more than that it got me stopping at the end and yes I have a better idea of what path I want now compared to when I was 15 but even then there are so many different things that I want to try and yet it takes a lot of time and effort and can also be really expensive it almost feels like you're sacrificing a part of yourself for stability and it creates a lot of self- pressure so I try to tell myself I can always come back to it when the time is right or when I do feel 100% ready but I don't think again I don't think I'll be 100% ready I don't know I just feel like I just tell myself these things to just not stress myself out basically you just have to have a lot of patience with yourself I don't remember who I heard this from but I remember them saying something along the lines of you can't control the output of what you create you can only focus on yourself and the choices that you make and with those choices it creates the future that is destined for you even if it wasn't something that you pictured yourself doing before I don't know if that was a really good explanation but I remember watching that video and I was just moved by what they said we're just going to keep this makeup look really simple I'm only going to be there for 3 hours and then I'm going to go home and probably watch the drama yeah that sounds like a good plan the class that I'm attending today is photo styling and a week before class the professor assigned us homework which was to create an introduction collage of ourselves uploaded by Sunday and reped to two other other people which yes was easy to do but it should be illegal to assign homework during summer break even though it's like a week before school to top it all off we have to present it today in class not only that but I read the syllabus and it looks like we have a lot of presentations and projects in this class you know sometimes I sign up for classes with a blind eye I just know that it's required I think we can all agree that presenting can be such a dreadful task especially for us introverts I always try to volunteer first just so I can get it over with sometimes that's not always the case and then I spiral wondering when I'll be chosen I mean I can handle presenting in front of the class but it's more so of a mindset like I have to mentally and physically prepare myself and give myself words of affirmations like okay you got this you can do it just say your lines and then we'll be done it's currently 10:3 and I have class at 2:20 which seems like a lot of time but then I forget that I have to drive there I have a feeling that once the semester progresses I'm going to slowly stop doing my makeup or care as the time is getting closer I'm feeling feeling quite nervous I know people in college don't care really to be honest like nobody really cares but I still get so nervous honestly it takes me 10 minutes to do my makeup but just because I'm talking to you this is probably longer like maybe an hour whenever I'm rushing I just blend everything with my fingers and hope it's Blended nicely my favorite hack is to use my lip liner as an ey Shadow then I set it with ey Shadow and it just stays on longer compared to too if I just put on ey Shadow then I'm going to do my eggo with a lip liner as well and then I also do my Contour this is perfect when I don't want to be using too many products going I go back in this palette I love this palette guys as you can tell this is my go-to palette [Music] [Music] first day of school I feel like nobody uses a planner anymore a lot of people I know use notion I tried using notion but I feel like I remember things better when I write them down the good thing about the first week is it's mostly about reading the syllabus and then taking a quiz on it if you actually read it I'm pretty sure I have plenty more ice breakers this week with my other classes it's only the first day of school and I have a long week ahead of me but I got this if you're also starting school this week good luck to you good luck to us we can get through the semester together I'm just going to write down a few more things and I'm going to head to bed [Music]