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like okay let's get to the news the news across all the front pages all the headlines everything today reaction to the princess of wales's video with her family this was released yesterday as she starts her return to public life following treatment for cancer now she said says she's focused on doing what she can to stay cancer-free after finishing her chemotherapy and she's looking forward to being back at work I mean it's quite unprecedented this kind of um look into a family into the royal family I know many years ago Janet I think I think it was Prince Charles persuaded the queen to let the cameras into B I remember those pictures then after the experience they came down shutters came down with a ReSound inside I don't think Queen liked it was very private um but this film is quite extraordinary and how how feel me almost like your pop video it's got that glossy slightly out of focus because it's not some of it they've shot themselves and some has been C uh shot by a director and uh you know a very skillful director it I found it you know very very touching it's poignant it gives you a close look up at the kids and the grandparents the Middleton as well playing cards so I looked at it and I thought yes Kate I know why you've done it but will you regret it because um why would she regret it because she's allowed access and images that that perhaps in the future at some point she might want more privacy but she I think she and uh William have decided that they live in the age of social media everybody's obsessed about what's been wrong with her and when she's going back to work every aspect of her life is pick kicked over and I think she decided right I'll control this my husband and I will control it we'll send out the message that we want to send out and you know fair play to them it's a great message of Hope for all cancer sufferers I mean she did say um this time has above all reminded Willam and me to reflect and be grateful for the simple yet important things in life which so many of us often take for granted and although yes I know you say they lead a very privileged life I'm I'm sure she has had the best medical care that anybody could have but she is the future queen of this country and she will be serving this country for many years to come but I think what I saw in that film was a family um and it was the children particularly that it I found very poignant because you think that must have been a very difficult time for them having to explain to the children we still don't know what cancer she had and I think that is her right to keep that private but they would have had to explain to the children at some point not very well might happen and that might happen and they seem to be very close and I loved the scene of the middletons the parents in the kitchen sitting around the kitchen table Brenda just playing cards and that reminded me that yes they're royalty yes they're privileged but also they're a family yeah BR you um and I think I think what that is as well you know somebody having been through it my main thing is about making memories as much as I can and happy memories and it's not so much it's it's it's just as much making the memories for your family so that they can remember the good times not trying to get morbid or anything but you know it's very important that was the one thing that I realized when I was diagnosed that I didn't have all of those memories and so I I try and start doing that now did did you talk to the children about what was happening to you yeah they were young as well when I when I finally got through it my my head um it took me a while to to process all of it in my head before I wanted to speak to the kids and tell them about it because I knew that there'd be lots of questions and I'm just looking at at Kate and and and her kids are much younger than what Jamal and Tanisha were and I can just imagine the horror that she's feeling while she's trying to tell them what she's telling them and not actually knowing it's the uncertainty of everything just because you know I might be cancer free for for 9 years but that doesn't mean that I'm free you know but it's it's it's so it is such a vulnerable time and it is such a vulnerable moment that you just want to as she said live each day as it comes well she does she does say that yeah um she said you know the last nine months have been incredibly tough for us with a family the cancer journey is complex scary and unpredictable for everyone especially those closest to you and that God us talking earlier Linda saying you know illness in often affects the whole family see the person go through it's very tough but the whole family have you found in your life you know illness in the family affects everybody affects relationships how you behave with each other well I've had a bit of a health scare myself um so quite a few years ago I had ghoul stones and they damaged my pancreas and um they've been keeping an eye on me for quite a while now so I go back and have MRIs and scans all the time but the 20th of September I'll find out cu I had a assist on my pancreas and it had gone from 1 cm to 2 cm so the kids have obviously been really worried about me this is happening right now to yeah if this if it is bad then they're going to have to remove my pancreas which means I'll then be a diabetic um but fingers crossed it won't happen hopefully the cysts haven't grown and that I feel quite positive about it but the kids are obviously worried and I so how do you deal with that as a family are you talking or do you just I talk but I make jokes about it all the time because I just try and diffuse them worrying about me CU When I did go to the hospital they came and they taped everything the doctor said and that that was a wise move was I I would have forgotten everything they' said you know feel healthy I've got no signs of it and when I had pancreatitis before I was screaming in agony and being sick and everything so hopefully it stayed the same size and then I won't have to have the operation I know when when Peter was diagnosed with skin cancer he didn't want to tell anybody and I thought it was terrible this is my partner I didn't I felt that it was um he was very reluctant to tell anyone what he was going through all his cancer treatment and I I understand that he didn't want to talk about it all the time but it was difficult um and it was difficult for me to be the only one that knew and but when my sister had lung cancer she didn't really tell me till it was well Advanced she kept it completely to herself and then we weren't that close but you know I was I was absolutely distraught when she did tell me why do you think she didn't she didn't want me interfering fair play she didn't want me thinking I could do it better she because she knew I would have been at the hospital I would have been commandeering her appointment everyone around but she you're so right so in I respect that but you know by the time I knew it was very well Advanced and so everybody is different but what about your family Brenda like um you know obviously the children but your wider family did you tell them straight away did you no no I'm kind of like what what Janet's how Janet was is um is kind of how my family are they they're very they there's so many of them and everybody has their View on how you should do it or what you should do or even if you should have chemotherapy there was all those sort of conversations but I didn't kind of want to hear it and I just asked everybody to just let me deal with this how I want to deal with it because there's enough to process with all of the information that you're being told by the oncologist let alone you know you're I'm thinking forward in six months time I'm going to be losing a breast and it's it's all of that so I don't really I don't really want to hear anybody it's interesting hearing it from you saying you know you don't want your family interfere ing your sistant what you interfering and I saw that when my sister was very ill as you know with depression I thought I was helping her so I didn't think I was interfering I realized afterwards how she saw it and I learned how to deal with that and not to swoop in because I think I'm a bit of a problem solver so when my sister would be talking to me about depression saying I'm this I'm feeling that I would be try to be positive so go do you know what I think you need Jews I think meditation you need to calm and think so then I would research it I would send her things I would I would book appointments and say I'll take you and I realize now it's actually I was smothering her with you know try thinking I was helping and actually stepen fry I heard stepen fry in an interview talking about depression and he said sometimes we just want you to listen you can't solve it we don't need you to solve it sometimes we just need you to listen and that was a big lesson to me after that was just just just listen to your sister don't helicopter in swish in and think to restrain myself with Peter we have to restrain you yeah I meanwhile yeah well um we do wish um Katherine very well and I just want to end how she ended her video the film she said to all those who are continuing their own cancer journey I remain with you side by side hand in hand out of Darkness can come light so let that light shine [Applause] from absolutely