oh that's the bit that I enjoy the most um I think we all have dark sides don't we I think I think there's a a kind of a a belief system going around that if people don't tell you everything they have something sinister to hide I think that's called privacy um and I think that we often are are very private people and it doesn't mean that we are necessarily dishonest or doing nefarious things but I think we all have things big and small that we want to hide from people because perhaps we're in process of dealing with them ourselves um not necessarily because we've done anything quote unquote wrong in you know in relation to my character but yes I think I I do play a woman who has things that she has buried um traumatic things that she has buried and I think buried trauma I I did read I'm sure everyone in this room has read the book but a book called the body keeps the score and the way that that trauma can exist and and remain in in the body on a cellular level and so I did think about what happens to um repressed memories and um things that we have avoided rather than dealt with and so that was I found it fascinating and quite painful yeah and I was very grateful that I wasn't in the same space