[Music] Devon has expressed that he loves me which makes me really excited but scared all at the same time thank you I'm not fully in love with d but that feeling that I have when I'm with him just grows stronger every time that we're together and I am hopeful that we will be able to get there so tonight I'm going to lean into all my feelings and see where that takes me this is beautiful we're in Hawaii we're in Hawaii we're in Hawaii and you look fantastic so do you will you make a toast I will I will okay cheers to a woman who makes me smile like it's the first time I've ever seen her every single time I see her she a woman who makes me happy even when I'm sad Cheers Cheers I like that Jen is a person that I want to spend the rest of my life with you know this is this is a level that I've never been with a woman I do love her I've told her that but it's so hard to love somebody so much and not know if she wants me back the way I want her I really need to hear it back I'm just fighting the urge to just tell her come on say it like come on just tell me how are you feeling this has been a long journey getting back home and seeing my family and my friends made me miss everything even more yeah um but you've been a good reason to stay and stick around and and see this thing through to the end because I am very confident in how I feel about you and I love that because it hasn't always been so clear for me yeah yeah I wanted to ask you when you feel like you can't recognize a good thing like what do you mean by that yeah the whole self- sabotage thing um I'm only slowly starting to recognize it now and I don't think I've done it in the past because in the past I've just had really bad relationships that sabotaged itself not for me I hear you but our relationship together has made me realized how much you mean to me and I keep saying like are you real like this is crazy it's because I've never had anything like this before and it almost makes me want to run away from it because it's starting to feel very real it's like it's too good to be true right like there's got to be you're waiting for the bang there's got to be something wrong you're waiting for the bang Jen did mention to me that because she has been hurt in the past she has a hard time accepting good things and I think that makes her move a little bit slower than I would like like but I've been there too in my life and I just never want it to end with her and wanted to know that she shouldn't have any doubts about me I know that's not a healthy way to be thinking about things I don't want you to feel ashamed of having reservations I don't want you to ever feel like there's that pressure from me to like yeah no and and I don't feel that for you to be someone so consistent so reliable to really when I say you speak to my soul like you really do and I've never had anybody like that before we have this communication this ability to be ourselves this comfortability and so much more it's unreal that's why I'm not scared to let you know no what how good it is for me and with you I've said things that I don't ever know if I'll hear back you know what I mean and that's not any knock on you but it's just because I feel so strongly about you that I I don't think I could go another day without telling you you know I don't love people you don't just toss the way around no no no so you're in love Yeah like where do you see it all going and are you ready for engagement I am in love and I am ready for an engagement I am ready because I have never felt a person accept me the way that you've accepted me in life you have been a rock that I didn't realize I needed until I hided there I would love to call you my fiance and I would love to call you my wife like those things go hand inand for me and I'm excited about that I can feel that from you and and that's what makes this so real to me and so scary for me is I can feel that and I know that it would work and I know that we figure it out together yes I might not always express it in the best way but I want you to know how thankful I am to have someone so unwaveringly here for me and I can't tell you how much it means to me I know I say that over and over again but it really is you can say it a couple more times it'll be okay with me no D like really I can't tell you how much you mean to me Devin is checking off every box that I've always want it and it feels amazing to know that he wants all the same things that I want he really just wants to settle down and buy a house and he's in it for the engagement at the end of this all I hope to be in love with de I'm not sure when that's going to be I'm not really planning on seeing it I'm not planning on not seeing it but I think I'll know it when I know it I have something okay do you want to open it I'll open it Jen and Devin I hope you enjoyed your day soaring above the Island's ancient volcanoes and creating Unforgettable memories together should you choose to forgo your individual rooms please use this key to stay as a couple in the fantasy suite Jesse what do you think I'm game if you're game I'm totally game let's do it let's do it magical key this does look like a magical key for a magical [Music] night I'm really excited tonight I'm going to have a full night of uninterrupted moments with Jen and this is a huge step for us and it's something that I look forward to and I'm I'm over the moon about it there two this is the first time we'll be off camera just talking about life and to be able to have that quality time with her is is very meaningful to me this is nice beautiful look at all the candles how romantic I only see one goal and that's Jen and I at the Finish Line together and us married and nice family with kids should we pop some sham yeah absolutely go for it i''d be crazy if I didn't see that at this point you know she's a she's a girl that I want to spend the rest of my life with to an incredible journey first of all mhm and to a sneak peek into what every day could look like with us mhm I am more excited than ever to spend this moment with you mhm today tomorrow and for as long as you live the whole dynamic of our relationship could change after tonight you know it could be all the mental assurances that I need all those little words that I need to hear [Music] this could be the biggest stepping stone that there is for us in this journey and I'm going to push with everything I've got and I'm not going to leave anything on the table