you were in some kind of group called The Pussycat Dolls uhhuh and you were like doing burlesque yes now I see the Pussycat Dolls have like a huge hit record yes how come you're not part of that I was in it for about 2 years and then like I basically did almost every show for free I do it you would dance around on stage but with clothes on we would D we would strip but it was it was really tasteful we would strip down to brm panties just really did it because I love to do it and then once the record deal situation happened and the to be honest the money wasn't it wasn't enough so I couldn't I had to part ways the record deal wasn't enough yeah what do you mean I had been doing it for free but I didn't have to do every single show I could go and do other jobs and come back to it but then once it came down to signing the deal I would have had to give up everything else but aren't you sorry live you would had a hit record that would have been awesome but then I would have I wouldn't I would have probably had to get a different house and you know not drive the car that I drive I mean I have a lifestyle that I love you mean you had to sign away all your rights to everything if you join the Pussycat do no but I would have had to like not maybe taken other jobs that could have made me the money that I'm used to making oh so I would have had to go on tour and that would have been great if I was getting paid but it wasn't a lot of money is what it wasn't a lot of money so I couldn't do it it was hard I wanted to do it