I [Music] remember the whole car crash I remember from the impact I remember the windscreen I remember look on the person's eyes they say time stops I never thought it was actually true until that moment and it completely stopped that night when the cars collected and I just looked through the windscreen and seen the other person staring straight at me I was 21 I just went into a dark hole and it took a while to get out of that dark hole as far as not knowing what my life was going to be and I think sport was the biggest part that pulled me out of that you workout knock it down to a thousand meters let's see if we can break the world record of three minutes for 46.5 [Music] I actually are involved in the Lifeline program it's mainly because it's actually saving very close to my heart [Music] lifeline helped me out when I was in sort of the darkest moments in my life a few years back and they were able to ring the ambulance and the emmalin's come and pick me up and admitted me into hospital it's that point of sort of learning to be able to cope with different situations and for me I was living my life I guess how I thought everyone wanted to see it I've become an athlete and a tunnel and was just focusing on that gold medal and little did I know the way of it I was behaving and bactine and different bits and pieces I drove my family away I separated from Michelle and that didn't get to save kids because of just the way that I was dealing with with everything it made me realize that chasing that gold medal for me is important but the family will always be there and I've got to make sure that I look after both sides and I want to show people that I might be an athlete and I might be winning gold medals getting World Records but I'm no different and I think the life line custodian program is a really massive being and I think you'll actually see performance of athletes and coaches in the future to be a lot better because of this program [Music] I'm very confident and hopefully we can get that a perfect race and come across the line first and get that elusive gold medal but just go into the Paralympic Games I'll be over the moon being selected the next year and looking forward [Music] ten seconds under the little béchamel just another day and train ready for Tokyo 2021