it was it was a big decision but it was something that I had to do for my personal life um but after 13 years it kind of felt like the timing was right um you know I gave I gave it my best shot for all those years and it was time to move on but yeah it it's you know it's always going to have a very special place for me that show always and I think if I'm honest I'll always feel like an honory member of the show I don't know whether they'll approve of that but that's how I feel