Tik Tok Mom, Influencer, Taylor Frankie Paul finally speaks out after her arrest.

okay [Music] um hi everyone welcome to May influence you I have a special guest today she is a tick tock mom and she is also my daughter her name is Taylor Paul she is here with me today hi everyone um I get to be the lucky one to get you on my very first podcast to tell us a little bit about um like the drama that went down in February where you're breaking social media all over the internet again from your divorce tell us a little bit about what went on that night well this is the first podcast that I am going to be I guess talking about that night I haven't um I was actually recommended not to talk about it um for legal purposes but it is all done now so I think I am at this point able to talk about it but I was arrested back in February February 17th to be exact and I'll never forget that night because it was one of the worst nights of my life um I actually haven't talked about it with like anyone really besides the people involved and I got um well I got arrested for one I I guess to start from the very beginning I went to a party and I was really struggling at the time um due to I think a whole bunch of reasons my divorce um pregnancy loss and then um just a whole bunch of things mixed together and I think I was like suppressing all the fillings then I had like a little bit of drama in my my current relationship at the time um so it was all like adding up and when I just went out with my girls and I was doing I would say well up until that night which I thought it was good I guess I thought I was doing better but I ended up drinking and then a flood of emotions ended up coming out that night and I think I emotions I wasn't letting myself feel um it was started with sadness and then turned into major anger towards my boyfriend and um there's a lot of things I was resenting him for at the time and I won't go into detail about that but it ended up being like a very aggressive fight I was throwing chairs and screaming at him and throwing you know just things and then um I ended up getting arrested so our neighbor called the cops because she could hear screaming so she thought I needed help um but we were kind of both yelling at each other and then I I was being charged because I threw a chair one assaulting him but two like potentially could have you know hit my daughter because she was sleeping on the couch and I was unaware she was on the couch that night I was like blocked out at this point so I had no idea um usually they're sleeping up in their bed so I had no idea she was right there and I was just throwing stuff and I um so yeah I got charged with child abuse because it's called Reckless child abuse so you can throw something and accidentally um if you accidentally hurt your child it is considered child abuse in this state I don't know how other states work but so I got a lot of different charges so assaults and then like throwing things at his car all those were I guess fast forward everything was dropped besides the assault um and I'm currently on probation for it um yeah and I'm on probation for three years and if I do good it could end early um if I just I guess if I'm well behaved um but yeah that's like the gist of that story it's like a short version sure um I know a lot of people think that the chair actually hit Indy which it did not and a lot of false information was going around social media and I know that it had to have been tough on you and everybody that you're around um yeah it was exaggerated like there were things on the internet that were like false stories things were exaggerated and it was a horrible night and it was like um you know I know that I was at fault for one drinking that night and then initiating the fight like it I know and I think that's why it's like so hard on me to even like think about this and it's actually really hard to talk about so because it comes with like a lot of guilt and shame and that was like the one of the worst times in my entire life and not only that are you feeling that with doing that and knowing what you did but also the entire internet judging you for it so it's like you're a child abuser you're a domestic violence like abuser and it's like she probably abused her ex-husband and so all these like assumptions are coming out and one I'm like a really um passive mom like I have never spanked my children I'm just like really easy going if not too easy going like they kind of walk all over me because I just say I'm just chill with my very chill yes and it's also I know that because she is my daughter and like I've stated before and my husband we were totally shocked that she was going to jail especially for some kind of violence because over 29 years she has never even raised her voice at her parents throughout her whole life and for your daughter to be going to jail for something like this big was huge yeah and so um anybody that knows you knows that you're like the most passive person and and I don't know how you stayed based on the internet knowing all the comments that you received I know just even with being your parents like your dad and I would receive comments and messages that were so mean and so hurtful I I couldn't even deal with it and so I don't know how that you know how you were able to deal with it all all this time yeah I mean what do you do to to help yourself get through all the negativity that you're going through well I do have my two kids to thank for that time because they were like the reason I like wanted to like hold on like with the amount of like bullying you get with that is like you become like suicidal you're just like sorry it's like I'm like really talked about it like at all um it's just like really hard because you feel like all this guilt and shame and then you see all these people like kind of like feeding that and like you are a horrible person you are a horrible mom and so you like start to believe all these horrible thoughts and so I was in my bed for like two weeks because I ended up getting both kids like my ex-husband was like Hey I can give you a break like I need you to figure out your stuff before I want you with the kids and I completely understood given the circumstance and so um I didn't see my daughter for a month and that was like the hardest thing um I'd ever been through and my son for two weeks and so it was really hard at the time I was in bed for I think two weeks straight crying and my boyfriend that I assaulted thankfully was there by my side because I think he knew all the stuff I was going through and yes it was like awful but I think he knew it wasn't extremely personal to him I think I just went psychotic one night and he was just the one there and unfortunately that's how it turned out and so um it was just like really hard for those two weeks and I honestly don't know the advice I would give other than like just holding on like it does get better eventually and it's really hard in that moment to like believe that it does like I was just had to like the I never thought to be suicidal but I was like in that moment I was like I just don't want to be here anymore and I cried to my boyfriend and he was like hold me and I'm like and the pain without your children is like really there's no like I can't describe it it was the most painful thing I've ever been through um so that was hard but looking back at it now to tell my self then it would be like just to hold on and get through it and the internet doesn't determine like your self-worth and they don't know the story the extent of the story I have to remember I have like so much support on my end now because I think people like got a bigger picture and they like if you've been following me for a long time you know what type of person I am I'm not violent for one I'm not a child abuser like it's just you are the best mom that's your I think that is your best character trait like you are just the best mom which is hard to believe now because the last year has been a show and I have been selfish and it's been really hard to get through these things I've never experienced divorce and I never experienced the level of um it was all over that my divorce was all over the internet as well so I was getting that's a whole other story in itself but to have all of that I um publicly yeah I was just struggling and it was I did have a lot of selfish Tendencies at that time I was putting you know my feelings and all of that before and I wasn't the best mom I could be and I know that I am and so this last year I wouldn't admit that I have not been the best of them all like the best version of a mom so it's like but other than that and before I think I have been a great mom and I will continue to be one of these or major learning lessons that you know I've learned and I hope one day maybe I can help other people out there that go through hard things and maybe to not take the direction I have in so many different ways that I've made mistakes I think people should maybe look at my life and be like I don't want to do that I don't want to do do this maybe like sure to help them you know yes and I've had so many people come to me and they're like I'm feeling this way about someone else or I feel this way in my marriage what should I do and um it was hard because I'm like I'm not that person to come to because I made that mistake but also I could be that person because I could be like if I would have done this differently I would have went with my first gut feelings was to get a separation and I asked for that twice and I think going back I would have just done that instead of like progressing in the show that we were in um and not and I I've given the advice to women is just like don't hurt your partner in that way if you want out don't Venture off into another relationship don't feed that take a step back see if you don't want to beat that person or do and then if you don't want to be with them then go like you don't need to hurt them twice and that's the mistake that I made you know yeah I think people just jump into you know just I want to get it over with and they jump and not really looking at you know like your two kids and you know who what it affects and who it affects and I think that would be hard and knowing all of this I've gone through it with you and so um I know the person that you are the character that you are you are so many people don't know the real you know Taylor Paul um which is what I wanted to an extension is this I've hidden like who you won't even know my real personality I feel like unless you know me I'm starting to share more of it recently but I feel like I was always so different than it was like in person I think I'm a way cooler person in person than I am online like I was more a jokester or maybe come off like as but when you people meet me they're like oh you're actually kind of you're really you're so nice so nice I don't know if I came off as a for some reason I think I make like serious jokes or like mean jokes that people think I'm a mean person in person at all I know I I know so many people love you and you have a lot of great followers and great people who you know do have your back and who are also nice out there and loving and forgiving and know that you know stuff happens and in life and that's how we learn from all our mistakes to get on to the you know to maybe better someone else and also better ourselves um and you've been amazing to help me my mom was my she was behind me all of like I feel like every step of the way like helping me so thank you for that that's kind of embarrassing for me no I don't know of course I'm your mom and I'm always gonna have your back can always have you know your best interest and but you're not like people think because they're like oh that's her mom She'll always like hide her mistakes or anything my mom's like very like if you do this you're gonna be like I would we were like raised like you're going to have consequences for your actions and if like I did anything crazy like my mom would not stand for like something extremely bad like right like with my child abuse charges like she knows me well enough if I was actually doing something like that she would never have had my back like yes you know of course yes you would have been like oh yeah absolutely because she knows me and and I know who you yes I know who you are and just you know social media and the news and everybody just made you to be this person that you're not and it actually gave me and your dad and I'm sure you like just the process of like the news and what's out there and they don't always tell the full story and they don't always tell the truth and the way that like the whole process if you know when you get if you get arrested and and you have to go through Court like we never have experienced any of that before in our families so yeah um that was a whole different ball game ball game for sure and we got to learn a lot and it also gave me like sympathy for like people that when we'd see them in court and be able to like you know they're somebody else's daughter or son and their you know maybe the choices that they made weren't right at the time but there are probably still a great person and before like you know if you went to jail I would be like you know like kind of judgmental but in reality it's like people make bad choices and sometimes it it stems from like the drinking and the you know drugs and makes people do things that they normally wouldn't do yeah and so I I do think it's a good Learning lesson for for you and maybe your siblings you know to to have to see that and hopefully that you can go on a different path and yeah they said they thanked me or my brother and sister thank me because they're like oh can't get worse than you so they're the golden children now oh no oh but yeah hopefully they can learn from my mistakes yeah but yeah I agree like people's mistakes don't Define them and I think especially off of an incident like this I can grow and learn from it I think if I were to continue to end up in jail and continue to have these charges then that's a different story oh maybe you are a piece of mom then you know but it's like I think people that have make mistakes you know and they change it's I feel like it's a whole different story yeah you should be an inspirational speaker and go travel and talk about your story because it does it can and it does change people um I don't know that might be your next step what are your plans for the future um well I don't I think everyone knows now I'm like recently pregnant so I have a baby that will come in March I would like um I've been talking with my management group but I would like to um start YouTube I think a family YouTube channel would be really fun and social media can be very dangerous and toxic I think in relationships and toxic anywhere actually if you you don't use it right yeah and I feel like I could you know shift more to like clean family content and um how boundaries like with my boyfriend now it's like there's very like strong boundaries because like nowadays Instagram all of the those things are ways to like flirt and like you know if you wanted to do anything sketch like those are the ways that it's happening now and I feel like because of the things I've been through and he's been through there's just like we know and we're like there will be like just very strong boundaries and you have to have those in order for I think it to work with social media as your job oh for sure but yeah I think continuing um social media ah I have a couple ideas I want to start but I think I I want to wait on those to say anything because I just don't know exactly if I will but how about your um I know everybody always asks me what's going on with your show oh um is that still in the works um what's what's the last that you heard yeah as of now it is still in the works I know it takes a while for these things to go I do know the network still wants us so they um I don't know how much I can say about it but yes it is still in the works and these things take a while um and they did have you I mean everything was put on hold yeah all those months that you were a little bit for what I like yeah I got in trouble and so they wanted to wait and see how it went and then now that it's done it's still like a little bit of a waiting game but we'll see I I don't know I'm kind of in the dark as much as everyone else but I'll keep everyone updated on that that's awesome yeah um so you're going to have a baby yes I'm so excited and so what does ocean in Indy think of you of you having a a new sibling and also their dad is having a a new sibling for them what are what are their thoughts yeah um I feel like it's their thoughts like I can't obviously say speak for them ocean I think he's so he just turned three and it's hard for him to comprehend I think he knows what baby in a tummy means but like not to the extent of like he's have he's gonna have two Blended families I'm sure it is a lot but I don't think he fully can understand what's going on yet Andy on the other hand does know what's coming um I think she's the one that struggles more with like I know it's hard for her to go back and forth and that's still an adjustment for them that's been really hard to see is like her adjusting and um yeah they will be getting siblings and for her it's hard to she's hard to read because she's kind of like me where she suppresses like feelings and so I was actually talking to her last night like how do you feel like are you excited and you know she does say she is excited for a siblings she wants um both of us to have girls so she's getting a sister she wants me to have a girl too so I think she's excited for sisters um I don't know what I'm having yet but I do you do and ocean wants a brother yeah he keeps saying boy boy so I don't know I think there are they're excited I think um even if they do have certain feelings about it they're so young that they don't understand why they're feeling a certain way but they probably feel it I'm going to ask you a question to go off that um why I guess this is more of like a mother question um I know sorry to put you on the spot here but I guess you can't speak for tay but I was wondering why you and Tate would move so quickly into bringing another life into this world knowing all the stuff that you have just recently went through yeah um going along with that yeah like you said I can't speak for him and I don't know how he feels and what their intentions were and how they're feeling but for me I could say I can honestly say that one I loved Dakota a lot and I I did have like a miscarriage you know back in October and I feel like that comes with a certain craving when you lose like it is known to like that you want that that you lost it it comes with more of that but back then I I was excited so it's like that hasn't changed um but I did tell you in doubt that it's my best version of me like is being like pregnant and motherhood and I think I just got so sidetracked from that with like you know a group of friends that I forgot that that's what I love and that's like the best version of me is um taking care of kids like that's just something I ventured or I just like do love forgot and that's what and you're so good at it and um I do want like you know not maybe like not a couple more after this but I did know I wanted more kids and so it's something I knew I wanted and I don't know like I am excited there's no reasoning but also I think once you've Tate and I felt like um maybe a void for a long time or like just not a strong love and so that we both found it it was like exciting and where we wanted to progress with it I I can't say for him but I do know that for me that's kind of how it it's gone well that's great well I I love your two kids more than life itself so I know I will love the next one just as much so I'm excited too and I think it's great that you're starting to be happier and um I I could only see you moving up and hopefully you can continue to be happy yeah I agree um so I do have a question I know everybody always asks as well and um I'm sure you've got this on your other podcast but I thought they were kind of silly questions but just to get off a little subject so is your hair real do you wear extensions I always hear like people ask me and so yeah um well so my hair used to go down past my butt so yes it was real it's always been real and then I cut inches off recently and um so my hairdresser advertises extension so she would put them in my hair for like to advertise but I've only worn extensions like three times in my life just for fun um so yeah my hair is real and always been real and I guess the other question I know it's so silly um how old are you really 29 I convinced I think so many so many people that I was old but it's honestly so insulting to myself do whatever I did it to myself that is so funny um well I know that you what are your plans other than YouTube well I guess you said that you weren't gonna really say what other things you're planning on I just don't know how I have a couple things in mind I don't know how official they are so it's like I don't know but I do have ideas that I want it's away from social media um I do want to like start a business of some kind I love event planning um party planning stuff like that so I think it'd be cool to maybe do that so if any of you entrepreneurs that are out there want to reach out to Taylor she's looking for maybe a partner or something to get into yes um oh we have Happy Valley our last drop oh he's coming this month uh well we're in September so yeah can you tell them a little bit about Happy Valley and what that is um Happy Valley was our brand with my ex-husband and our group of friends we ended up buying them out so it's just Tate and I and it's our last drop to close it off we have knitted hoodies um a family like all sizes from baby to Mom and Dad so they're gonna all range and so we're gonna be selling the rest of those we have so many coming and yeah that'll be our last drop awesome can we um give one away from this episode to whoever goes and likes and subscribes to my channel yes um well I'll pick one out of you know whoever does that yeah tell them like comment so we can like draw their name or something right I don't know how that works so yes okay yeah so just comment on looking at my guys over there um so yes okay yes go and comment and go to YouTube subscribe and we will pick somebody's name and mail that out to you yeah yeah I wish we had one to show I know but they they kind of they'll be on they're so cool they're they'll be on my platforms as well so Taylor Frankie Paul on Tick Tock and Instagram if you want to look at them well to wrap this up um I am glad that you're that you came back to listen and hope that you continue on this journey with me you can find me on YouTube Instagram and all the other social media Outlets yes um so until next week I'll see you soon bye [Music]