now earlier tonight you all saw Jonathan leave Hawaii with a broken heart well he's here with me now to talk about it so great seeing your brother yeah you too and I know I I think back to your relationship with Jen I know it just seemed like such a fun and easy connection right from the beginning and even though it did get more serious as time went on I think in the end it just may have been too little too late yeah oh oh my head oh oh no what is this I'm love sick when I first see Jonathan I'm just thinking who is this guy right now it's a little hot in here turns out he's hot and fun this is so much fun I love this there could be something there 1 2 3 4 is incredible fun the banter the jokes the Rapport are all there there's never a dull moment when we're hanging out oh it's a there you go it's a no pull it up pull it up wait is it there you go this way it almost feels like a romcom I want to do a cartwheel are you there's a shared Bond over like how fun and how light we look at life do a cartwheel and we have that physical intimacy as well but can we connect on an emotional level I have a very hard time fully trusting that somebody's exactly what they say they are and I don't want to give somebody my all when I don't know what all is inside of them mhm I can see exactly like where you're coming from but I think it's important to be able to let your guard down and show your weakness sometimes because that is what allows someone to be there for you yeah it feels great she happens to be on the same ladder that I'm on she just helped me get to the next step Jennifer TR mhm I am falling for you Jen is an amazing amazing woman I can see a future with her I can see her this is beautiful oh my God I told her from the beginning I was a bit of a slower but my feelings are so far ahead of where I thought they would get from night one we're just happy I have no doubt in my mind this is my person Marcus I'm just mad at myself I could see an amazing future of this girl and I feel like the biggest idiot in the world because something amazing was right front of me and I was too much of my own enemy just to see it until I was too late I'm just tired of standing in my own way how's it feel watching that back it's hard there a beautiful Journey amazing moments and watching it all come to an end is just you know it's not something that I wanted you know I missed out on something incredible and I regretted not getting there a lot quicker what was it about her that made you think that it could work out between the two of you you know I think from day one we just had a friendship and I think that's what you want you want to start as like friends like can you sit there can you have fun with that person can you be in a blank room with nothing else but that person and enjoy it night in and night out and there wasn't a dull moment we ever had she listen she's so attentive to everything you know she would reassure you on your feelings like the there were things that were unspoken that I was not even scared I was terrified of and she would just pull me to the side she like hey this is okay you got this and then I think it got to a point where she was I'm in love with Marcus and Devin said he was in love with her and ours was just good and comfortable and that was hard to watch you I was sitting there I was like love is involved like really in love is involved in both of these relationships and we're in this place where we can't go past it yeah so that that was definitely hard to to see but I think it's it's great that you can watch it back and and make realizations about yourself too you've talked about hey you know the next time I'm in a relationship I can try things differently to really be the best version of myself in that because you are a great guy and you deserve than you toine love um assuming you're still single are you because you know there's a certain Beach that's going to be opening next summer so I would hereby like to officially extend to you the very first invite to the beach next summer what do you say I say I'll see you there all right I see you there we see you in Paradise obviously you know Jen's going to be out here later tonight how do you feel about talking to her um I'm beyond excited to see her you know I have a lot of love for Jen so when I see her today you know I'm just going to light up I'm going to be so excited to just give her a hug say hi and hopefully just tell her I I hope she found exactly what she's looking for oh that's awesome I'm really excited and glad that you both get to have that that moment together yeah um thank you so much for being here tonight I know it wasn't easy