stop drinking yeah very difficult no beautiful unbelievable better oh you kidding I would never be sitting here with you no way no chance because because I wouldn't have been able to have access to myself or other people or even been able to take in other people uh if I hadn't changed my life no way and I never would have been able to have relationships that I do I never would have been able to take care of my father the way I did when he was sick so many things