uh I've had been shot at I've I've gone through all of this pain all of this chaos watching people die watching all of this stuff and to think to this day like all of that was to use me as a vessel to help people that are in a dark place and people that are in that place that I was to be able to help them and to think about your story and looking at it in clips of it's crazy how God uses people through certain ways and through certain trials and tribulations