[Music] it's been a little difficult because obviously I can only gauge how I'm doing by results like I feel faster I feel better but I lost in the second round so it's a little rough but also it's been fun playing a lot of tournaments it's been a commitment for sure but um I've been able to go to different cities that I've never been to um I really enjoy Doha I I haven't been there so well I have been there but um I don't know it's been nice to go there but um yeah it's it's a little rough because I do take these losses really personally like uh it's like a dramatic word but like I feel like my heart dies every time I lose and it it sucks a lot but I've been trying to be more mature and um learn and talk more about them