it was so nice to see that moment between you and shibui on the well I had not met him we were actually rehearsing at the same studio for the bmas and like he was that right next door and he yelled at me um in the parking lot because I ran over a traffic cone and he was like you got stop back up back up to the music don't be do the dve I was driving I drove under a cone cuz I was like I to get the hell out of here um but that's how I met him oh my God and he is like so lovely he is and I hear you are too my dear in your skills your talent is incredible tonight you're going to be delivering your first live award show performance what are you making of This carpet experience your first nominations four of them at that yes I just learned I had four nominations that's awesome I don't know why I didn't I was like I think I have three um I this is quite overwhelming and quite scary um I think for someone who gets um a lot of uh anxiety around people yelling at you it the the carpet is horrifying yeah and I need to I yelled back CH the front of the Dr Chapel turn toward not me are you back you don't get to yell at me like that um so but that's something you have been able to voice here recently you spoke out about how you didn't really like some of your fans Behavior how did it feel to to release that and get that off your chest I think people really listened you don't think I do I do think people really listened just like my experience around New York City even like the past few days like people have been so respectful like no one has been creepy to me or like harassed me it's been like I I feel very heard and like it feels good and I think that it's hard for artists to speak up because they're so scared of their fans hating them but we're not actually talking about fans we're talking about like people who are harassing and like if you happen to be fan then we're talking to you but like it's easy for me to stand up for myself so like of course I had to say it I was just like I'm not taking this for the rest of my career I've been famous for like one month this is not how it's going to go girl and you have some fans I was just talking to Elison John over the summer and he was singing your Praises folks like Elton siza Adele I mean so many people have said they feel like pop music is safe because it's in your hands what does it mean to receive that sort of I mean it's not just me girl it's all the dress Queens it's all the trans Queens it's all the other pop girles who have been working their butt off for 10 years like it's like we've all been doing like me and Sabrina we've been doing this for a decade and like it just takes this long to like lift up I think people just want people just want something fun and like not serious bringing it we're bringing that what's the story behind the outfit well it's a little sneaky peeky of what's to come this evening I have three different outfits oh that's it so girl yeah there's I don't know if you could tell there's actually I've got like night boots on honey and then you change into the gray and the black when you're off stage right oh well keep that in mind keep that in mind all right fa