you know I think I think like you'd be you'd be crazy to not have butterflies you know going out into that environment um but you know I think I think a lot of the calming of my anxiety um over really over the last two years has gone back to my faith that you know I mean no no matter what what really happens out there you know Jesus is still going to love me my family is still going to love me U and and that that allows me to go to go play really free and you know really easy