I think if I have that kind of approach it's impossible for me to to win a race right right right so essentially what you're saying is in the long run especially with these longer distance Mountain races um uh you know achieving goals only comes at the as a consequence of the lifestyle that you live as opposed to being very kind of driven towards a specific result and I I've heard you say um I think it was with respect to maybe it was uh UTMB last year like the question was like how do you shoulder the pressure of going into UTMB like you've won three times can you do it again uh you know that must be overwhelming and you said something like well if I win great but if I don't you know I'll take my kids to you know go do something and I have a whole life outside of this