[Music] [Music] today I am in Tacoma Washington meeting Marcus's family and I'm feeling excited hello hi Tacoma looks good on you does it yeah how it yeah you welcome to the thank you you look beautiful thank you miss you I feel very hopeful about Marcus I could really see myself falling in love with Marcus want to go for a little walk sure all right let's go sure I mean feelings have definitely grown in the past few weeks and especially last week having a second 101 date but it's been really hard for him to open up to me and express how he's feeling I know that my feelings are further along than he is and that's scary so today with meeting Marcus's loved ones the people who are most important to him I'm hopeful that he expresses his feelings for me there's just a lot of wait on today why you sit so far away I don't know I love you so good no I'm excited for you to meet everybody okay so who am I meeting what's the what's the game plan right so you're going to be meeting my little sister Gabriella yes she's been the most consistent person in my life and very excited for you to meet her me too my adoptive parents will not be there today but you will meet Scott and Sue okay so when I was a young Ranger I was looking for mentors and kind of Parental figures and they really stepped in and filled that role for me and that's kind of where I realized that you know my friends here in Tacoma are more than friends they they are my family so it's just the fact that you're here and that I get to introduce them to you it's a very very special day for me today yeah I can tell I don't want anyone else a a feel so nice come here a having Jen here in Tacoma and getting to meet my family and my friends and all the people that I care about it just feels like a like a Clashing of of worlds for me in the best possible way but I'm definitely feeling nervous because I can't wait to see kind of how Jen interacts with with everyone we love Marcus and I love marus I cannot believe we're going to see him this is a pretty big group of marcus' people I feel like sometimes you might be a bit of a inting of a group to walk into I hope your brother told J what she's getting into yeah we'll know by the look on her face all right okay how are you feeling right now I'm excited I really am I'm excited I want to remind you that they're going to love you thank you you need to walk in there and just know that okay um and I think they'll they'll remind you a few times in there but yeah I think it's going to be a blast ready mhm all right here we go I don't want to get into it what hello everyone what this is Jen this is everyone [Music] hello this is my sister make my round we open the door and I see everyone that I care about and that I love and it instantly Feels Like Home to me wait can you guys tell us like where you've been Marcus was my first one1 date very very yeah so we did something very casual we went skydiving no way and then yeah we got up there and he was really great with me and he was yeah he was really good you guys were in the plane together like getting ready to jump out yeah I thought I was going out first and like you know J needs to see someone do this before she can do it and they just kind of like kicked her out okay I'm coming for you I wanted to go first I need to break your fall somehow you know I know Jen's a tough girl and she can handle herself but to see her so seamlessly fit in with you know my friends and family is impressive and it makes me it makes me hopeful it is beautiful out today yeah isn't it but I've struggled this entire journey to open up and to stay open and so today I'm looking for clarity and and wisdom from my friends to help me like unack how I feel about her I'm doing everything I can to to stay open to the possibility of of falling in love and and having a future with Jen but I think I'm kind of stuck somewhere between really really liking someone and and loving them and I don't know maybe maybe I'm beating myself up a little bit because I'm like not in love with her yet but you know I still do have hope that that that can happen you know what's the main read you're getting from her I know that she knows that I feel strongly about her and I know that she feels strongly about me but if and when we fall in love I think we're both kind of like waiting for each other to like take that step or like to to to make that known and Jen is like incredible so you know I wonder how much of it is because I'm like afraid know like the last thing that I want to happen is to like Miss A a great thing sitting right in front of me but like I think I just need enough answers to take that leap and I think that's kind of what today is for me is kind of getting some of those answers and getting some of that Clarity you know I know that there's nobody that's going to think it and analyze it more than you I just hope that you come to the right realization this whole thing is extremely scary to me I think it's really hard for me to let people in and with Jen I think she can kind of sense I'm struggling to get there fully with her she's waiting on me to figure out how I feel and I don't have the answers that I'm looking for right now so I'm terrified