remember when we were on that first phone call and I was like you were like oh yeah I want to work on this I was like how much time do you have like how how much time do you have and I you know your Will Smith so I'm thinking you don't have any time and and I don't know how serious you get yet I'm not I'm not aware yet of how how immersed and obsessed you get with stuff I'm still learning about you and then you're like I've got two hours and I was like all right two hours a week two hours bi-weekly two hours monthly you're like No 2 hours a day two hours a day and I was like wow he's real I was like he's serious like I was like wow he's he's for real and then you know it was just it was and I'd go away and you reinspach off as I went to London and and you've been traveling it's like I spent the whole of Christmas reading myself for four to eight hours a day meditating again that's beautiful