IF YOU KNEW BETTER… YOU’D DO BETTER! TIME FOR CHANGE

what's up what's up y'all bring your ass up in here I'm going to I made up my mind today I don't know what it was uh why today today is just a random day it's I mean it's a Monday but the date or anything has no significance on anything I was just like you know what it's time man it's time see what I'm saying like I'll be getting out there there's more having interaction with people and women's I'm like you know what this ain't the life for me no no no no so I got to move man I got to do something hold on I don't know if this is is that better nah that's just the lighting all right but that's what I'm wanted to talk to you guys about real [ __ ] like I've been like you know I've been in my feelings I'm going through a lot you know what I'm saying it's just me it's just me damn it so and and I don't you know I don't want to put my burdens on you guys all the time and you know other people so it's just like I just and I'm a guy so I just hold that [ __ ] in you know what I mean but it's just like so I've been kind of in like hermit mode real [ __ ] just being a Hermit not really doing [ __ ] and that's not like me you know what I mean I need to uh I'm a I'm a I'm a people person I'm an extrovert I need to be out here with the peoples but I can't do it because I'm you know I'm not myself so today I said you know what I'm going to do it damn it enough talking about I'm going to do this [ __ ] smoke my last 305 Fleck that [ __ ] out the window and I said you know what I got to I got to I got to pop up and show [ __ ] I got to do this [ __ ] and I'm no expert okay so I don't know I'm not telling you I'm I know I'm gonna I've just done it before I've healed myself before see what I'm saying and so that's what I'm aiming to do so I want you to kind of kind of test myself right quick so we can kind of gauge cuz I'm going to go hard guys I mean I ain't got nothing else to do do you the [ __ ] so all I'm saying is we we try something what if like I told you last time what if what if so I'm trying now what if all right let's see so I'm not saying I'm going to but people are regaining [ __ ] they lost me including myself including myself so I want to see what birthday present I can give to myself and I'm going to go hard I mean I'm going torture myself I do it anyway you know what I'm saying torture myself and then see what can happen you know I'm not going to not going to have cheat meals I want to I I wanted to cheat so I'm I'm struggling right now and it's barely day one and it's only 7 o' what's up bro thank you Jamal says he's here for me listen bro I appreciate that real [ __ ] real [ __ ] it means a lot man um because that's that that's what matters in this journey you know and so that's all I'm saying is look I've tried I've tried listen I've tried a bajio I've tried whatever the pills are because I wanted to start off slow so I was like you know what let me try the least if I'm going to do it so I started off with the pills and I don't remember the names I should have looked them up but you know I started with some of the pills and then they were like oh that's not working so let's switch over to something else because this is more effective right what they always say this is the latest and greatest so then it was um abio was the latest and greatest at one time then there was toy that they tried to put me on which was the latest and greatest then there was I think that was Copaxone that was the one where uh you have the needle and you inject yourself um and I wasn't was it every day I don't remember I don't think it was every day though it might have been for a series of days and then you stopped either way i' I've done all that [ __ ] you know what I'm saying and none of this [ __ ] has ever reversed my [ __ ] none of it has ever said I've taken it and said oh my God like my symptoms are whoa I'm a new man thank you I've taken none of it are you listening to me none of it so what you said you said uh tell what tech tech federa I think that's what it's called but yeah none of so that so Tech federa is the the magic pill that's the one we should be on to to redu reverse symptoms and [ __ ] cuz if so let me know cuz I'll sign up for that [ __ ] I'll look into it no real [ __ ] though you know what I'm saying guys none of this [ __ ] so that's why today I said you know what again [ __ ] it's going to be tough don't make me feel any better see that's what I'm saying he's saying it don't make you feel any better the purpose and that's what I'm telling you guys I tell you these things cuz I hear it and then I'm like I want to go tell and spread the word none of it is designed to make you feel any better do you understand if you're in pain if you're experiencing fatigue or if you're experiencing drop foot or numbness or tingling it's not to make you say hey look let's let this [ __ ] go away make it go away it's there to say hey look okay well he's experienc in numbness and tingling in his left hand which I am right numbness and tingling well the purpose of the medication is to make sure he's stable and the numbness and tingling doesn't go over to his right hand or increase and go further down his arm or his fingers and stuff like that you see what I'm saying but I thought if I was taking it originally it was to make the [ __ ] go away damn was I wrong and I hope you guys see that man I hope you guys see that so that the the no shade if you guys are on it I'm on this [ __ ] you know what I'm saying well I'm not on anything but um the purpose is to get off so with doing the diet because you can't just jump ship like that unless you're just me your crazy like me but you win yourself off of the medication the drug and so but through diet and nutrition for me I've experienced that the way okay um uh you're on acris oh okay yeah that's the one that you do every six months or some [ __ ] right ain't it and you got a dose coming up Friday uh uh to not get anything out of it again bro that's what so we're seeing you're testifying you're not getting [ __ ] out of of it it's not for you to get [ __ ] out of it so get that out of your head we got to get that out of your mind it's not for you to say hey I'm going to go in here and oh my God I'm going to come out and I'm going to be rejuvenated a new man I'm about to go run the 40 and dunck a basketball and [ __ ] and start doing some moves no no brother no they're saying no look we're sorry you're there but if you want to do all this and do the the crossover moving behind the back you better you better do that [ __ ] on your own we ain't got [ __ ] for you but I'm telling you that I am going to rely on diet so with all that said I'm going to just give you a little Baseline of where I'm at so we can kind of gauge um so I can kind of see when all this is over how well I'm doing or if I if it even helped at all who knows right cuz they say the [ __ ] doesn't help but who knows who knows oh oh [ __ ] okay all right so like okay so oh balance is an issue balance okay so I stood up right I don't know you can see this leg is kind of straight but the left leg won't Bend I'm having a hard time bending so okay balance let's see can I do a jumping jack hell no I'm not even going to try all right stretching's pretty good can you lift the no no okay can't lift the leg and let's try to okay the left leg the right leg but see because the left is weak I can't balance but you know what I'm saying oh okay and then walking around oh [ __ ] now I see I'm about to fall over you see I need a wall you see I get a wall and I'm doing this out without the the bend on my back like that okay that's kind of like like a little Baseline I'm trying to gauge where I'm at you know and it's all about how I feel too um I can't sleep right now I'm in pain so much I can't sleep I toss and turn I have my foot on a a pillow so all right sorry about that but yeah I sleep on my back and then my legs um propped up on a pillow mainly my left leg and yeah to to Jamal's point so when you take acris it's an infusion and that [ __ ] is like a 4 Hour infusion 6 to 4 Hour infusion and it's that way if I'm remembering correctly because with acris before you take acris you got to take some like uh allergies uh what is it called uh for allergies uh uh robot tesin or some [ __ ] like that uh but what they give you for allergies and that infusion takes like an hour right and they do pre- infusions before they give you that one but that one I think is like a 4 to 6 hour infusion right so you're there all day and then you with you get to mingle and hang out with the old folks and you get to talk to them and hear all their War Stories and [ __ ] like that benel there it is yeah benad yes thank you that's what it is and then they have those little like leather kind of like little recliner chairs and then you know they can come you know give you the the orange juice and the crackers but the thing is is again you're in there it's not to make you better so it's tough guys it's tough you ain't got to do it but just watch me just don't watch don't watch me watch TV watch what I do right watch me see what I do do and then see if it works and if it doesn't work you can laugh at me but I'll be honest with you there's some days where I just I I I got to stay strong and I got to stay strict with myself because I can't cheat I got to every day every second counts I have a goal I have a mission you know I'm trying to get myself a little birthday present well let's see my birthday is on October 4 10o let you know Tempo huh over and out Tempo but I want to see you know like what I can give myself you know test myself and push myself to see what happens and again I'm no doctor I'm no expert but again I'm telling you and I'm tired of living the way I'm living though [ __ ] I can't do [ __ ] and then I'm in Florida too I'm over here and I'm walking around I'm talking to some of these ladies and I'm like oh my God she don't even know like she wishes like damn you know what I mean I got to get myself better you know what I'm saying and then the most important the most important reason why I got to get myself better it's for my princess man my son you know what I'm saying for my kids I got to be there for him for them for her for him for them um you know dads matter in the family Dynamic you know what I'm saying dad's real dads matter and when you have somebody like me who does everything with my kids you know that makes a that makes you a huge impact on kids lives you know what I'm saying because you already know what what it's like not having a father you already know the dynamic of fatherless homes I ain't got to tell you that [ __ ] look next to you there's a dead Beast sitting right next to you you see what I'm saying that type [ __ ] you know what I'm saying but I'm not from that CLA so um It's just tough but this this is all the more reason why I want to kick back on the uh the uh my my my journey my diet you know what I'm saying so I got to be here I got to be doing [ __ ] I mean come on I I don't want to be sitting around here looking at y'all doing stuff on Instagram and Tik Tok all day looking at everybody else enjoying life and me be like oh man well I'll catch you later people don't even be calling me like well [ __ ] G Can't you know he can't really move move around like that uh let's not even call him I never thought I'd be the guy that they'd be like oh let's not call Y and it's because you're a burden I'm a burden and I don't want to be a burden no more you know or if I could be less of a burden than I am now right the goal really real [ __ ] the goal of mine and I'm going just go on there and tell you is I want to see if I can start walking again with my cane so ditch the Walker and just get back to my cane by my birthday I mean that's a lofty Hefty [ __ ] goal right I'm shooting for the moon here cuz I'm in a walker right now and you see I can barely W hobble around my back is broken can't bend over and I I have balance issues so I'm wall surfing so when I'm in the house I'm wall surfing if you see my walls right here they're dirty as [ __ ] the house is clean but then if you look at the walls you're like damn there's handprints all over that [ __ ] yeah that's me I'm wall surfing all day so that's why I wanted to you know I need to get better need to get better voila um see exhibit but you know what I'm saying it's just in general it's not that one per se but you know what I'm saying in general fellas you see what I'm saying [ __ ] I'm trying to do something to something ready to do something what's up but I really find that in steps we'll see we'll see I have a little bit of blur Vision at night and I think it's just because I need to well no it is I think my eyes are fatigued or something maybe I don't know but I feel like when I'm watching TV at night I get a little blur Vision um I definitely uh I don't have I drop stuff so if I'm holding stuff in my left hand I drop stuff which is another reason I'm quitting smoking cigarettes cuz [ __ ] don't help I'm riding down the have my cigarette out the window and I drop it don't even realize I dropped it and I go oh [ __ ] yeah okay sir put the [ __ ] 305s down but what do you do [ __ ] I'm I'm sad I'm depressed I be I be I be going through [ __ ] you know what I'm saying so then I'm like you know what [ __ ] this [ __ ] I'm let me light up a 305 real quick or then I found I found I made it I found a convenient way for me we got to drive through a drive-thru convenience store over here you ain't even got to get out your car you just drive go through the middle of the [ __ ] they got [ __ ] on both sides coolers and [ __ ] on both sides they got white teas in there peanuts they got all kind of [ __ ] in there so I'm like okay well [ __ ] let me just drive to I get out my car give me my [ __ ] but I feel it it messes me up and I Know It And I Know It and that's the thing I know my body and I feel it after I smoke like I feel the inflammation in my body that's what's [ __ ] up right you know it's [ __ ] up when you feel it and you're still smoking cigarettes and [ __ ] and I'm smoking the cheap [ __ ] too that's what's sad about it that's what makes it worse I remember one time some some uh some chick she was like hey you got a cigarette and I was like yeah she was like but wait a minute it's not a 305 is it I was like yeah she was like never mind I was like [ __ ] I'm I'm good I was like damn I was like man yeah you're right [ __ ] I be Fu I don't want if it's 305 hell no them cheap ass shits oh Jesse I'm sorry bro this channel I'm ranting right now but this is a channel dedicated for uh people with multiple sclerosis or chronic illnesses that we're dealing with I don't look like it and I don't act like it but I'm going through a lot right now you see what I'm saying but again that's why this channel is here because we we just everybody's going through [ __ ] I don't want to hear about that [ __ ] I want to hear how we can overcome so that's why this channel is here to just spread uh love and and and show people that there's a way to overcome we can we can heal cuz nobody's talking about that nobody's telling us we can heal they're all saying say oh we don't have a cure we're researching The Cure no they're not they're researching current therapies that are already on the market they're not reaching researching for a cure for MS they're researching for the current therapies look it up look at your look go look at the current therapies out here out there and look at the About Us section I challenge you cutting edge research and look at these foundations what do you what what what is even even even and I'm not [ __ ] on them okay but look at the MS Foundation the MS societ what are they researching are you researching the [ __ ] cure excuse my language are we researching current therapies that are currently on the market what are we researching that's what we have to come to the uh that's what we have to get real and ask the question okay we're researching well what the hell are we researching cuz I mean they're already going to the Moon they're talking about Mars and [ __ ] and got uh cameras and everything to go to Mars they're advancing over there why AR we advancing over here so while they're figuring it out I don't have time to wait on them to figure it out cuz they're never going to figure it out you understand I'm the dope man I don't want to figure it out I want you stuck on this dope you know what I'm saying so while they're you know you why everybody else not saying them but while the masses are very worried about oh well let's see what best medication what new therapy is going to come out please let there be a new therapy we realize or I've realized the veils uncovered from my eyes that oh [ __ ] the the the therapy is not here to heal us anyway so it doesn't matter what no one's coming out the new one let's the new one please say you're going to cure Ms when you say that then I'll start researching cures and therapies not cures therapies I've yet to hear one of them say we're researching The Cure yeah you're trying to find a cure you can say that but are you really cuz the MS medication you're giving me isn't saying that it's going to cure [ __ ] not even a symptom can I get a cure oh man all right let me get off my rant but that's that's it guys um I've just realized that for me and you guys don't take my word is Bible go do your research man go look at this [ __ ] and then come back to me and tell me what you think that's what I want that's I want some educated dialogue here I I don't want any ignorant [ __ ] I want you guys to research what I'm telling you so we can come back and we can talk talk intelligently about this [ __ ] what did Jesse say uh look good with that Arman dialysis uh Jesse says you have alport syndrome rare kidney disease I've been on dialysis for 35 years nothing has changed too much money to be made wow wow oh man that was Heavy uh sir um the reason I say that bro uh no no I'm not talking [ __ ] is it's heavy because my my cousin uh we lost him uh with his kidneys uh rip my cousin yeah so he was on dialysis man I uh yeah anyway I know your struggle so keep fighting brother and that's what this is about we we want to fight here you know what I mean and we want to look for Solutions because there's so many like you said 35 years ladies and gentlemen this man has been waiting 35 years has there been a cure in 35 years we're still hoping and I'm not talking [ __ ] you see what I'm saying I'm hoping too but how long do we have to wait this man's been waiting 35 years is he's on dialysis right now like real [ __ ] my dialysis my cousin was so strong and I don't know if you have this issue too but it makes him it makes you sick right so when he was on it like I would visit him and the last time I visited him he was strong and I didn't know but he was in the back he's like I just got back from treatment and I didn't know so the kids were in the living room I'm chilling with the kids and he's like I'm just in the back room give me a second I go back there this man's throwing up in the trash can and stuff like that and he's sick it it drains him and I'm like man I didn't know dialysis did that to you so he's after dialysis he's at he's at home and he has a a gallon black trash bag throwing up in the trash bag man you know so it drains and so that's what's sad seeing that it's like what what are we doing man like what is and and I'm talking about like our medical model I'm not talking about us I'm talking about the medical aren't you here to help us and aren't you here to cure us aren't you supposed to be on our side like what the what is so strong that you're giving this man that he is coming home throwing up after the proced and he goes four hours three times a week no you're on it s days a week wow wow ah makes me uh keep fighting bro keep fighting man man it's a no well did I read that wrong I'm sorry I don't want to don't don't put words in my mouth uh too much money to be made I'm on it right now I'm lucky 4our three times a week before on the machine 24 hours 7 days a week so you were on the machine 24 hours wow wow and now you're just down to three times okay so you're getting okay well that's good that's goodoo that's good keep fighting bro keep fighting at the end of the day you know that's all we got and and at the end of the day what can we do to help ourselves what can we do to help each other I'm no doctor I don't have any magic serum to give you sell you anything but I can tell you to go look at your local farmer huh go to your farmer's market huh that's what I'm going start doing go go go go you know look at clean sources of water to drink I have a burky water filter it's expensive but the [ __ ] is worth it berky water filters filters out the uh chlorine in the water or excuse me the chlorine the floride in the water fluide treats you not the water it says so you can have strong teeth okay didn't Hitler use fluoride to make the people doile anyway it filters out fluoride it filters out other things in the water um but just look at getting filtered water if we can't get that started just drinking um distilled water you know um clean sources as well any any way right but anyway just water um fruit fruits vegetables and that's it I'm going to see what happens um if I cheat and eat a piece of meat I might have a piece of chicken or a piece of steak I'll let you know but the goal is to n just to stay away from it and just really just let my body heal and see what it can do cuz my body's powerful it's getting me this far by myself Doo huh huh I look kind of extra chromosome is this way I shouldn't have done that um I have a whole bunch of stuff in my hand extra chromosome is oh man what the hell is that I don't even know what the hell I I be making [ __ ] I be making myself oh man um so I have I have multiple sclerosis so uh the people a lot of people in these in in my group have multiple scres yes sir Ms um so it's a neurological disease that's kind of debilitating right so it kind of it messes with your it's handicapping right it's paralyzing that's the best way to put it kind of in layman's terms right it's paralyzing so it cripples you so they say see how I'm walking now they say I can can't get better and so what happens is if we have a a relapse and I was walking before but now after the attack I'm down a symptom now I'm you know I lost of Mobility or whatever I'm stuck and so the medication they have to give us isn't to help us regain what we lost it's just there to help us maintain and hopefully we can just keep holding on and the medication keeps holding us on and that's all they got for us so that's why up now sorry my neighbor so that's why um that's what happened so in my condition sorry getting back to what I was saying so my condition where I'm at they say I'm stuck I can't get any better the medication they got ain't got [ __ ] for me they ain't got [ __ ] to bring me back to to normal quote unquote right all they have for me is to help me maintain where I'm currently at Richard prior yes Jamal is Right Richard prior had it um there was the guy from uh what was it the the rock star uh the white guy what's his name he has he has Ms um what was his name the white guy crazy his dad was a crazy rock star they had a show and stuff um but the son had it um who else Montel Jordan the guy with the did a talk show he had it but again he's doing better they don't really talk about him he did stem cell and he talks about diet too but he doesn't really get into it but what they say is I can't get better you can't get better you're stuck this is where we're at see now why I got all this [ __ ] in my ass hold on so now with diet that's what I'm attempting to do I'm attempting to see hey look let's see okay you say I can't you're better well let's see if I can't because what you have isn't the way so how do we overcome well we're like ants what do ants do when there's a roadblock they go around that [ __ ] or they go above it underneath it whatever but it doesn't stop them from the mission from healing so we want to heal that's the goal that's why we're on the medication right ain't it we want to heal so we're like [ __ ] well let me get get this medication cuz this is going to help me heal the key word heal [ __ ] that's what I thought and that's what I cling to but you know what that's not the case so diet is proven God's way Nature's Way we feed our animals better than we feed ourselves if you think about it our dogs and cats are eating better than that our we are their [ __ ] has way better and we're cautious so so I look at my cat right cuz I have a cat now so I'm like well [ __ ] she eats the same stuff every day sometimes I cheat and I give her some people food or whatever but I'm like she eats the same because if you don't she's going to get sick and when she does she got sick and she started throwing up and stuff I was like damn okay I can't really I was high and I gave her some [ __ ] cuz she wanted it it was some candy or some sweet [ __ ] and she threw up but I said damn that was a reminder of me I was like well damn if I'm doing that the cat like so she's going to kind kind of help keep me strong you see what I'm saying um cuz I'm like well [ __ ] she's doing it every day eating the same same [ __ ] um I have had multiple scris this will be oh [ __ ] this will be will it be 13 it'll be 14 years um this year no it'll be 13 Years it'll be 13 years this year [ __ ] 13 years in November I'm holding on I'm trying to stay afloat like love boo you see I'm saying I'm um and somehow Magic Johnson got rid of his AIDS I don't know if he got rid of it but he sure is walking around like he might have too I don't know but yeah he's walking around like healthy as [ __ ] but see here's the thing here's the thing right with Magic Johnson everybody who knows what his diets like we don't know he doesn't talk about it he just talks about he ain't got AIDS but I mean I mean and he probably does he has the money they probably got the drugs for him if you got the money they got the drug for you but again what if you ain't got the money for what if you got AIDS and you ain't got the money for the damn drug right not saying none of us have AIDS all right but you know what I'm saying it's kind of I want people to be like damn he's talking to people with AIDS and [ __ ] and if you do no [ __ ] you know what I'm saying I'm sorry but you know anyway what do we do but diet diet try it diet how about you I'm going to see we'll see what happens we'll see um hopefully my inflammation that's the goal is to bring the inflammation down cuz that's the the the root of all this stuff right is inflammation ain't it again I just do my research people again correct me if I'm wrong cuz I'm no guru or no [ __ ] like that I just be talking my [ __ ] cuz I research a lot I'm one of those if you tell me some [ __ ] I'm going to go look at it and I'm going to go research the [ __ ] before I say it's C and then if it is then I'm going to come back and say you know what you're full of [ __ ] here is why a b c d e and I got some more but no I mean our medicine isn't helping us so what we got to lose what do we have to lose what do we have to lose is all I'm saying you're still going to we're still going to take the medication but what do we have to lose all right I'm about to go in here and uh watch some football f ball um oh there's my neighbor there's my neighbor yeah man I was married uh married did the the wife thing uh got kids and stuff like that but yeah I did all that man hello hello yeah man now I'm just trying to trying to get back you know what I'm saying that was a blow and uh that all that with multiple sclerosis you know so that's tough on somebody you know what I mean but you know all this and you're still trying to just stay afloat Like Love Boat you know what I mean do what you can and spread good news and and try to motivate well that's what I'm doing I'm trying to motivate everybody else to be like me if it works or if it helps which I know it helps I'm just talking [ __ ] cuz what is the other alternative is my thing if you doubt it if you doubt if you have any doubts right and you have any doubts just give it a try just say hey look let me uh let me see one time for the good time and then if it doesn't work for me well let me go back to this [ __ ] over here scoot over Fred I got an infusion but the goal is is to say hey you know what Fred uh guess what this this week uh I only got a 2hour infusion you know those of us they and it's not it's not a magic pill is what I'm saying it's not a magic pill it's not going to happen over fornight you know what I'm saying I'm just going to try to see but look at other testimonies too there's fat sick and nearly dead Joe Cross he did one there's a um um not Forks Over Knives is okay uh but there's another one um but fat sick and nearly dead is about juicing so that's good okay but there's other documentaries of people I'm just saying don't take my word for it there's other documentaries of people saying the same things okay so don't take my testimony as just Bible and say okay look this guy go look at it fat sick and nearly dead Joe Cross juices and he was fat as [ __ ] and then at the end he has another guy on his journey and it's a teer jerker you'll start to you know I'm not crying you're crying type of [ __ ] you know it's it's you know I'm just killing a bug they got a bug I was just you know but um yeah that was a goodie but again there's other documentary so please look into it start your journey there start looking into it I'm just somebody talking [ __ ] but I want to give you the flip side of the coin because I feel like the our industry is failing us and they don't tell us that we can heal and then when you do hear hear that you can heal they tell you oh it's not proven and don't don't don't I don't recommend it then ask him if you don't recommend then what what medication what Ms medication on the market do you recommend that's going to cure me or get me to regain some of my symptoms that I lost if that's not effective tell me what Ms medication on the market today is please I'm waiting my name is himothy Sir with the capital H I also go by the name of uh him Duncan um H Neutron um man we do this bro hey I'm I'm proud of you thank you for joining bro thank you man hey Jamal hey uh oh man it was nice to meet you too Jesse hey how you doing boss man um but that's the thing Amber Amber Lamps Amber can testify I think Amber's going to join the journey we got two warriors on the call on the [ __ ] what's up Amber says she's down like four flats Amber's going to step up to to the call how what excuse me oh no the wrong car oh you went to the wrong car that's a Nissan yeah you got a Lexus ain't it yeah yeah it's right here by you oh okay oh yeah okay here's another one hila hila um he says Jamal says nice to meet you too come and I'll try to come up with the plan yeah well we'll try to listen let's try to come up with the plan guys I'm serious like and I don't know how it's going to be because I'm just telling you let me tell you my day today it was rough all I was eating was Apples because I wasn't prepared it like I said it was just a spare the moment type of [ __ ] and when the spirit hit you sometimes you just got to move you know what I'm saying from my experience see what I'm saying so it was one of those things where I was just like you know what all right [ __ ] it today's the day boom and so I said no it's I'm not doing no more smoke my last 305 flicked it out the [ __ ] window and it was crazy when I said that too and I said I'm not doing it guess what my neighbor who works at a a pastry shop hit me up and she was like you want a cin aot this big ass thing and I was was like oh my god do I just as soon as I made that decision real [ __ ] and I was like are you kidding me right now but I had to uh I had to uh you know stay strong and you know I'm I'm confident in my decision you know and I'm just I'm I'm excited to see what's going to happen real [ __ ] you know um is there kind of group at the hospital before I go is there some kind of group at the hospital or Clinic no so there well I shouldn't say that cuz I don't know every hospital or clinic is different and I don't know what type of group you're talking about are you talking about like a like a Therapy Group like what we have um are you talking about like what type of group are you talking about um but at the clinic or the hospital I've been to the hospital enough times to know at least my local hospital here in in Central Florida um they got a chaplain that'll come and talk to you um sometimes they're cool and [ __ ] like that they'll um come talk to you for a little bit but a specific group um no no so that's why I'm like trying to like start some online [ __ ] real [ __ ] guys like so that way we can come online no matter where we are cuz sometimes we might be in the hospital and I might I started to come live from the hospital a couple times myself to be like yo uh what's up no I just stepped on the roach you know I'm see I got him I got him I got him stepped on the roach I got him I got him and this a little clip too this is roach for some people you see what I'm saying but uho good thing I dropped this one and I was like oh [ __ ] I got a roach uh there's a roach down there oh anyway whatever whatever whatever you guys suck all right yeah tell him to come back bro tell them to come back um I don't know I just be getting on here I don't know what good what's a good time if you guys put down there or put in the comments or whatever go to my um Tik Tock or IG whatever you guys are on you know I'm not really on Facebook I'm sorry um but Tik Tok IG if you message me I'll try to be more um uh sometimes T IG filters the messages and so I don't get them right away but I do respond so hit me up let me know like what's a good time what's a good time for everybody cuz right now where I'm at it's 8:25 so I don't know if this is a good time you know I don't know what what is that on the west coast eight s six five five why can't I count backwards three why I can count but backwards three I'm like uh what time is that so we got some we got some people okay he hasn't F see we got some people in Texas too we got a lot of people we got like three people in Texas too well I'm telling you we we need to do like a little uh little Retreat guys I'm serious like a little little little Retreat I got to get better though I got to start cuz I got to walk around so you guys can see me I'm I'm walk around get little buff on y'all bust out of my shirt and [ __ ] be all oiled up and [ __ ] like oh my God uh-huh yeah you thought this was a game n but the goal real [ __ ] is that everybody um everybody just has options I guess at the end of the day you know what I'm saying because if you don't even want to do fruits and like if you're contemplating right if you're contemplating well should I do that right should I do just fruits and vegetables and just go go go go go damn go cold turkey [ __ ] go cold turkey should I go cold turkey or should I do it you're you're on the fence about it you're playing double dutch you're trying to jump in and out I don't know try something else try a different diet there's different diets I mean and I don't call it a diet I look at it more like a lifestyle change cuz that's how you have to look at it okay you're changing your life lifestyle a diet is temporary this is a lifestyle change now it might be it could be temporary in the long run but you know what I'm saying once you get in there it's more of a lifestyle change you don't want to go back to the way you're eating baby see what I'm saying so pick one that's maybe you can that'll work for you so if there's the the Swank diet or the the the walls diet or the uh I don't know um um the walls protocol is one that just came to mind but you know there's all kind of people that that that that are saying oh this diet works for me this diet work this lifestyle works for me um pick the one that's going to work for you right and try it but either way you're doing better than what you did before and you're helping you're a step closer to getting off this damn medication that they have no intent us intent of us getting off of you understand it's not meant for an end date hey I'm going to take this but what's my end date doc so do you have an end date for me I'm going to take this iasio or I'm going to take this acris or I'm going to take this toy but what's the end dat e n d and I'm challenged you ask your doctor that and see what they say what's the end date you know what I mean cuz by then taking this should you know kind of repair some [ __ ] kind of repair some of that milin kind of should bring down some of the inflammation right real [ __ ] Amber says when you stop breathing exactly real [ __ ] but what what challenge you to just give him a ask them just honestly and just just genuine response I want to hear what you have to say and watch them start swallowing peanut butter like they're trying to swallow peanut butter if you've ever tried to swallow peanut butter they start choking up watch them start choking up so I just wanted to shed some light to uh those May who may be new to Ms or new or not know the condition because that's the thing too people don't know about our condition you know like it's nice for us to talk about it but it's nice for other people to come in and here too because it sheds light to other people that might be ignorant you you know what I me ignorant to what we go through and not know I have family members that don't even know you know what I'm saying or know the severity they know but they don't talk to me on that level they're just oh how you doing is everything but they don't know what questions to ask or you know what I mean they don't know hey is is your balance okay or you know like are you sleeping or yeah cuz and then you don't want to tell people I'm [ __ ] up I'm in pain and I didn't sleep Li last night cuz I was tossing and turning out the pillow and then I fell down all the way to the bathroom pissed on myself a little so then I had to hop in the shower [ __ ] um maybe your hospital has an end dat yeah uh it's a hell of a disease but it's uh we can overcome this [ __ ] man you know who is her name what is her name I have to go back into the archives I have some archives for you guys I really do um but she was a famous uh doctor her father was a doctor and then she followed suit um but she talks about how the body can heal itself and once the body heals itself no matter what it has the body heals and she was going oh what was her name and her father if anybody remember uh she she's older older white later but her father was an older doctor I think it was a neurologist and she followed too but she was like the work she was doing was was good work but anyway she talks about that and it's true once the body heals it heals you look at a cut right if you stay the [ __ ] out of the way and stop picking at it and stop picking at the scab it'll scab up and it eventually heal you see what I'm saying we got superpowers we just got to we got to allow our body to do it and I feel like the medication is a barrier and it doesn't allow our body to do it stops our body from doing certain things and I feel like real [ __ ] the reason I'm able to stay so but like the the mobility the little [ __ ] I do still have left is because I haven't been on this [ __ ] real [ __ ] real [ __ ] because you know with Ms look at the stats men with Ms they declin quickly stats show not us but stats show that for some reason when men it hits men it hits us harder right that's what they say don't shoot the messenger but staying away from their [ __ ] all these years and and sticking to my diet I feel like there would be days I walk in with big ass bowls of fruit I'd have a bowl of uh grapes big ass bowl of grapes this big and people would be like damn like and I'd sit there and I'd eat the whole [ __ ] all day and that's all I'd eat and then sometimes I'd have two bowls and I'd have bowls of grapes strawberries and it depended on what my locals farmers market or my local Publix or Aldi or whatever the [ __ ] had on sale you know what I'm saying but I would stick to more of the grapes and strawberries and then sometimes I'd even have pineapple I ain't going to lie but again I was eating fruits and people say damn you're going to eat all that one guy told me my manager Diaz told me he was like you're going to go blind bro you know that damn sweet ass fruit and [ __ ] grapes and [ __ ] you're going to go they call me the fruit bat Diaz told me I was going to go [ __ ] blind what's up Diaz if you're out there what's up shout out to Diaz um have you had a root canal oh [ __ ] um no no hell no no sir I've heard that you [ __ ] I know he's talking about root canals oh man he ambasa I know that rings the bell don't it sir ambau that's one of those medications uh you have on Deck handy that ult no real [ __ ] no my bad are you are you good though does your tooth hurt and [ __ ] you remember those ambers all commercials they be all in pain the pain goes away quick as you can say ambur and then his tooth a go away and [ __ ] see so what are you talking about the uh worst pain ever yeah so what are you talking the r can out like is that common with multiple sclerosis you just talking about in general you just talking about General ruken and my bad bro I'm not trying to talk [ __ ] he's over there talking about my root canal and [ __ ] I just listen that if you only knew if you only knew my upbringing that's all we do is talk [ __ ] I was talking [ __ ] you know I'm on them papers and I talked to them boys so I was in the office with the PO supervisor and she told me to drive around or something so the [ __ ] could get signal so I text her and I was like Hey listen uh you owe me guess is $3 and some change out here I said you owe me $3 and some change talking [ __ ] her for driving around for you I said I'm going to send you my bill you know she text me back she said uh she said man bye so she gets it she like man bye all right so what do you say uh worst pain ever uh you had your tooth pain and toe oh you got your you got all your tooth listen uh I've heard if you're in tooth pain tooth pain te te te te teeth pain is that a word teeth pain or is it tooth tooth pain cuz when I was in County real [ __ ] I saw people get their teeth pulled out they came back and they was like man that [ __ ] feels way better and then one guy had dentures and he was like yeah man then you can get the the little you know what I'm saying so if you're in pain [ __ ] pull them [ __ ] [ __ ] I pull all my [ __ ] out and then rock me the damn Dentures yes sir and you can even bite that Apple I heard with them [ __ ] some of them some of them [ __ ] some of them I think you a even buy you can go Bob me for apples this Halloween and [ __ ] coming up October bobbing for apples in them shits mhm yes you can I think you can correct me if I'm wrong correct me if I'm wrong G oh oh my bad my bad I'm sorry all let's view the message why do they always hold the messages for review I don't know why they do that oh shoot okay hold [Laughter] [Laughter] on he said by the lap or you thought that was I I I cracked myself up oh [ __ ] and then I got this [ __ ] I got this tree and [ __ ] but I think you can bro I think you can cuz when I was in County one dude he was biting apples with his [ __ ] and I was like damn he even take his [ __ ] out but you know I don't know I wouldn't recommend it is all I'm saying I take it out you know but [ __ ] if listen it it was the same thing too I don't know if you seen it on Tik Tok or on on Instagram but you know if you're going bald which I'm blessed thank God I mean I'm crippled and [ __ ] like that I got a life sentence beliefs I got a full head of hair so far you know what I'm saying um but um if I wasn't if I was going ball for my ball fellas they got in the back right here if you can get the George Jefferson at least if you can get this [ __ ] right here right if you could at least get the George Jefferson they got that cold haircut for you they got that uh that Dallas shag you know the you know okay so the fade instead of fading from the bottom it fades anyway it's a patch of hair but you fade from the bottom up you fade from the neck up the the back of the neck is your hairline and you fade that [ __ ] up that [ __ ] look clean you know what I'm saying like for all my brothers that can at least get the George Jefferson [ __ ] cut that George Jefferson off and you can have the little fade in the back what it's that Dallas shag kind of like that that's how they got it from what that [ __ ] is clean I get that bro get that [ __ ] you know why hold on you know that's what I'm saying [ __ ] it why hold on you know Let it go [ __ ] you know what I'm saying if you waking up and there's [ __ ] hair on your pillow and [ __ ] you know just let it go bro let it go you know what I'm saying what he say LG at Reggie oh man but yeah see I'm getting gray though I thought about you know and see I'm not one of those but Barbers are talking about let me get the enhancement and [ __ ] [ __ ] if you got to use enhancement you ain't a real Barber to be I don't know what these new Barbers is using enhancement for and all that [ __ ] Beijing get that [ __ ] cuz guess what now I got all this [ __ ] in my hair I got all this enhancement all this [ __ ] beijin in there and then I go home and now I look crazier if I start sweating now I look I got this [ __ ] dripping down my you know what I'm saying then you go home and that's to cover up the lineup that's really what it is cuz then you go home and then your lineup's all [ __ ] up and you're like oh okay I see how it really was you see what I'm saying but that's why I just try to keep my [ __ ] natural see you see my [ __ ] is already going back oh oh oh I got the little babies pull the babies out uhoh okay you see got to pull the babies out cuz my shit's going that's why I'm like no don't even line up the front bro just do the just Tin Tin Tin get the little widows peeking that's I'm good there cuz I think I'm going ball right there hey you yeah that's what I'm saying you wash it out and then your hairline is looking crazy I'm like What's So what's the new wave of this enhancement like everybody wants to get enhancement now and that's everybody like what the [ __ ] is Barbers doing man you can't cut if you need enhancement don't give me the I sat in a new Barber chair he autom started grabb the B said nah man I don't want that [ __ ] man hell no no MM that just means you can't cut Yeah by graay by graay came in I tell people I'm like hey look baby look I just I just ate a powdered donut I forgot to wipe that [ __ ] off don't worry about that [ __ ] right there you know uh what did you say Jamal said I'm about to bring back the Naps with the spray what what you talking about Sir and then he said uh I rock the wisdom streaks oh yeah you you your wisdom streaks grade early and then use the the spray Yeah man they sprayed that line in you see it you see how they be spraying the line in and [ __ ] like nah I might get some should I get the little Bing in the beard so I can look younger I might Beijing the beard on y'all next time you be like damn nah I've had the grace there so for a minute that little patch so I don't know like I think it real [ __ ] I think it look funny if I if I did the Beijing oh Jamal you baldheaded bro I'm telling bro get the [ __ ] man if you got the hairline that's you know attention Lieutenant way the hell back there and [ __ ] like that ENT Lieutenant cut that [ __ ] off man you know you like the grap I look like a old manad I'm curious to see like what the cuz I'm noticed like I'm noticing my skin this is just you know like the skin looks my skin in comparison to when I eat clean it looks different so I'm looking at my skin I'm like uh so I'm excited to see you know what changes my skin goes through too you know as far as blood mishes and looking over all just healthier not to say I look sick and [ __ ] like that you know what I'm saying but just looking overall healthier excited to see what this journey brings to me who wants to set up uh a chat so we can we can do this like we can set up these little Ms sessions like you know how people in your city I don't know if they do it they probably do but like in your city they have little MS support groups right that you can go to locally and you can go to and you can sit in they're fewer and fewer nowadays but you know like I want to bring that to just virtual like we're doing here so we can just chill and shoot the [ __ ] and do whatever come as you are you see what I'm saying no judging you see I come in my wife beat her and [ __ ] like that you know I don't give a see what I'm saying um but who wants to uh Jamal said it runs in your family yeah and then I'm not joking man I mean I know you know boldness it's it's hereditary so they say that's why I said if you going to be bald bro instead of just rocking the George Jefferson at least be clean with it you know get it faded up in the back man but I mean you do you you that's your business you see what I'm saying you do what you do my bad um but um what was I say um yeah I'm just I'm I'm I'm excited to see what what the how how my Skin's going to look how how how good my Skin's going to look and how how different is going to appear for me you might say hey look you look the same but to me you know you look you you look at yourself right so with this condition I started to evaluate myself more and just pay attention to more of my symptoms and and certain things so when I get that urge now I'm like okay I know what that is now okay I got and I kind of know I kind of gauge myself to know okay how much time do I have before I'm pissing on myself you see what I'm saying so I know where the bathroom is so I can get there so I'm moving so I don't embarrass myself in front of all these damn people like I had before that ain't fun I don't care who you are that shit's embarrassing so I'm I'm like yeah I'm embarrassed and you walk it off but at the end of the day you're like damn I'm not trying to go down that path okay well set it up bro if you can please set it up Jamal said he's down set it up um I don't know what's out there now I it might be um like to where we can just you know like FaceTime you see what I'm saying saying or like a zoom you see that that's probably what I'm looking for a zoom right and um figure out how to set it up or whatever I'll figure it out I'll pay for it or whatever and then um or maybe we can all chip in and pay for this [ __ ] see what I'm saying um but do a zoom and then that way we can come like we can have like a standard class and we can come like every every month or every week you know what I'm saying I like every week you see what I'm saying or every day you know I'm going to be here you see what I'm saying aside from the group you see what I'm saying but if we had like a standard group I can host it and if other people want to taking turns hosting it or whatever and then we just talk [ __ ] have different topics we bring up you know um I think that'd be dope I think that'd be cool and um I think zoom and then that way too you know with zoom if you want to be on the camera you can but you ain't got to you ain't got to show your face you know what I'm saying saying you can still be there but at least we hear your voice you know what I'm saying um that type thing see what I'm saying my thoughts but I think we should do it I think we can do it just like they have AA meetings they have um once a month more topics and O I like that okay once a month cuz they have AA meetings just like that right they have support groups and they have AA meetings every day but I mean once a month uh bi-weekly every two weeks uh you know every you know what I'm saying but you know we can still there's I guess yeah yeah I see what you're saying the topics and stuff but I was just like you know there's always something to talk about but I see what you're saying but let's brainstorm let's figure out how how you want to do it you know um but my sister's keeper suggested a zoom call like the Zoom call okay once a month um and then we can just look and and an easy way to do it too guys is I I'm subscribed to the MS foundation's newsletter so if you go to the MS foundation and if you go to the MS Society their websites you can get subscribed you can put your email in And subscribe to their emails so those are good topic points I just don't go over those and we we can start but that's a good starting point because they have topics all the time and they their newsletter comes out I want to say it might be once a month I think you're right uh to to my sister's keeping uh just don't laugh at your squeaky voice come on bro it's all love here you know what I'm saying it's all love I I'll make fun of you initially but I mean after that I mean you no but I'm just saying as come as you are where there's a judge free zone we're not judging nobody's judging [ __ ] it's like they say if you do one ping finger is pointing at you the you know two fingers you're pointing the finger at somebody else two fingers are pointing back at you that's what they say right so it's like you know us of all people me of all people to be talking [ __ ] about somebody holy [ __ ] no we poke fun and it's it's it's out of love but that's all that's it it's all love at the end of the day so let's uh got to laugh well at least I'm honest okay at least the [ __ ] I'm honest at least you know it's just me and I'm not just some robot out there at least you know okay well at least I got to see where he's coming from you see what I'm saying it's from love I I say it with love you know what I mean but at least that was just and that was one of those things that just came out and damn this is another roach now [ __ ] but uh I got to go watch some football this has been a good talk guys I'm glad we got to do this please please uh thank you for liking subscribe go to my Instagram go to my Tik Tok um like And subscribe there and send me messages there okay can send me messages here too I get them here um so just be patient with me I have MS sometimes and sometimes I I my problem is I see messages and then if I don't respond to it right away I forget about it I've read it and I'm like okay I'm going to respond but then Ms I'm like okay squirrel and then something goes away and then I forget so bear with me but another trick is CoQ10 see we're full of tips and pointers here to avoid that CoQ10 for memory fish oil for memory flax seed okay um Amber is from oh uh my sister okay see see we have a lot of people Central Time Amber you're alone you're you're on the island out there Amber party one Amber party one California your table is ready amberlamps is on a island out there in Cali it never rains in southern California they tell [Music] me it never rains in southern Calia I care he without your 8 by 10 that's a big one eight by by side I think I don't think you say 8 by 10 but damn um okay see that's what I'm saying we need to make a trip out there I'm down to go to Houston I'm down to go to Houston see you got family he's there I think some other people are in Texas anyway so that's not a a trip for them that's a short trip to Houston I don't know the the it's not that far from me well I don't know I don't know how far it is but I'm down I'm in Central Florida I'm in Orlando Central Florida Florida Jerry Florida you see the see the palm trees back there that's better for the light anyway so we chilling we out here um yeah no but again I um oh you want to come out here come on come on come on let's go you want to go see Mickey Mouse the Orlando's cool because you know why I like this city is because in just Florida G in general you can do a lot of stations you know it's a state it's a city it's a state where you can do a lot of stations so I would do on the weekend you know extended weekend hey look a three-day weekend we're going down and getting a a beach we're going down to I'm going down to Tampa I'm going down south to Miami or Fort Lauderdale you know what I'm saying and we're just going and going to the beach getting a hotel staying at the the hotel at the beach in a different city you know what I'm saying then come home so you can do a lot of stations here which is kind of cool um or you ain't even got to go to the beach listen there's in Orlando they got all all kind of resorts so it's like staying in Vegas right you just go to a different Casino you know what's up bro um and so that's what a lot of that's what I do too you know I'm like hey look uh let's go let's go to a hotel for birthday parties or whatever birthday presents hey your birthday present is is you and a friend can go stay at the Nickelodeon hotel and then we could do this and this and that you know what I'm saying oh they got grown own [ __ ] out here too you know what I'm saying oh that airport is a mother you talk about if you you talk about a big ass airport that or hair airport holy [ __ ] that's like a whole another city right there damn I'm telling you listen if you go to that airport and you are in a walker please by all means you better get somebody to uh you better get transportation and I or if if I'm just saying if you get a walker please use it just I hope you have enough time to get where you're going cuz that that airport is big as [ __ ] cuz if you don't please get somebody to we you cuz sh okay we got to vote for from Florida Jamal wants to check out Florida it's just like any other City really I guess it's just more [ __ ] to do depending on what you're looking for if you're looking for [ __ ] to like attractions and uh to do with the family yeah yeah there's more definitely more stuff to do like I said we do stations I mean uh Universal Universal Studios U um get a hotel out there you know what I mean because you don't they have CityWalk they have this place called CityWalk where they have restaurants and clubs and bars and stuff like that um where you can just go and hang out they got a theater and stuff like that so you don't got to go to Universal Studios you can just go out there and hang out they have concerts at CityWalk too um and then the younger kids you know it's a thing where you know you go out there and try to see what little what well y girls you can holler at and [ __ ] like that that's like one of the little little spots uh what did you say are you what I get it own ZIP code so please use your wheelchair what you right oh yeah she see see see so she confirm uh uh My Sister's Keeper he or she right he's my My Sister's Keeper [ __ ] [ __ ] the old hairport is big as [ __ ] I'm telling you if you want to go to go there if you want to messing around go ahead tell them you want to walk M you going be you going to miss that damn flight you better you know how to speed walk or power walk or just be a good well and that's the goal that's the goal with all this that's the goal to be able to walk through the air or you know what and I'm going just be real and then I'm going to leave you guys with this it's possible and I'm going to tell you this I joke and I laugh because it can be done I did it do you know I couldn't walk well you see me hobbling now I I have blur Vision in my left eye I have paralysis in my left hand if I tried to squeeze something I tried to squeeze your hand you would say squeeze and I would say I'm squeezing and you wouldn't feel anything long story long I went and I did no sugar no grain no sugar like I'm doing now I got adjusted by the chiropractor and I got better my symptoms got better you know I couldn't you know a goal of mine was to take my family to walk to cuz my kids wanted to at the time they were younger much younger they wanted to go to Universal so I took them to Universal this was one of the I mean they went several times with this one of the first times and I said I just want to walk through Universal I just want to be able to walk and just go to the rides do you know I prayed about it and I was taking LDN too that's another one we'll talk about a low dose they track some but I walked and I did it somebody I went from not walking at all to walking all around Universal Studios do you hear me I took breaks and we stopped in between and I would say okay I'm I'm limping cuz I don't get me wrong I was limping and I don't even think I had a cane at that point I didn't guys I was just limping and I would take breaks on the bench but then I'd said okay let's get up and go but I walked around the whole park all a universal I just remember that [ __ ] so I just want to give you hopes and I just want you to know that it is possible don't let them tell you you can heal we can heal and we are going to overcome okay despite what they tell us okay despite our obstacles okay and then I'm going to give get my kids back too and you're going to see them with me I'm fighting it's a struggle but hey look I got to be healthy for them cuz when you see me I got to be active with them I can't be they can't we can't be talking in a wheelchair I got to be doing [Music] something mindset guys that's the mindset think it into existence okay act like it's already here we're going to heal okay give it a try try whatever try something but just try it okay see what I'm saying I'm telling you my Lane I'm going stay in my Lane but whatever you want to do just try something okay give it a try I'm I'm going just leave I'm doing this from me until my birthday which is I don't know how many days it's almost a month right probably go a little longer than that but I want to see what type of birthday present I can give myself 10o is my birthday October 4th 10 V Lieutenant that's my birthday so I want to see what type of birthday present I can give to myself okay um your Happy Spirit carried you that day love it y um yeah guys so um My Sister's Keeper just here Jamal Amber Lamps um who who else who else did I miss anybody did I miss anybody TW W for real um all my warriors fighting let me see did I miss anymore Jesse James shout out to everybody that joined the live man you guys are awesome shout out to my kids too my princess stay strong my son Queen stay strong it's a it's I'm going to stay strong for you you stay strong for me okay and know Daddy's coming for you okay I'm fighting I'm not one of those to lay down despite everything they can't say hey he didn't fight every day I'm telling you ask about me ask the court about me they're tired of hear it about me they're tired of me that means have much love war keep fighting keep riding love okay hey let's do this chat thing so hey hit me up so we can figure this [ __ ] out I'm serious okay I want to do this more often okay love love