in your journey as uh Maria kalas can you talk about how much you related to her well there's a lot I won't say in this room okay that you probably know or assume um I think in the way I related to her may be a surprise that probably the part of her that's extremely soft and doesn't have room in the world to be as soft as she truly was and as emot Ally open as she truly was um I think I'm I think in that in that um vulnerability I share her her vulnerability more than anything um yeah so