I'm Joan and I'm your first golden Bachelorette I'm going to make so many new memories on this journey but I want to talk about some of my old ones oh my gosh I love this picture it's of my four kids when they were pretty small Nick is probably at the oldest 10 and it's when they got their first dog you can see they they love each other and they're still best friends today oh God this is a great picture this is of my late husband and my father-in-law it was one of the first football games we ever took the kids to I love that this tradition carried on even through the memory of both of them they are both know longer with us but we are all still huge Commander fans my brother and I at our childhood home I think we must have been in like high school wow we look like huge nerds and look at those haircuts they're really bad my mom and dad holding me and they look so incredibly young my mom is 92 now and she's still with me my father have just passed away a few years ago so I was lucky to have them through most of my adulthood my mom and my grandmother and myself they have these iconic old outfits on so I love looking at these my family we used to go skiing every winter in Bale it was a big chore but it was something that was really valuable to our family you can see we had a great time it's very funny looking at these old photos now and thinking about the future but I had a wonderful past and I'm looking forward to this next part of my life