PTSD things and some kind of metal
things you've been going through. What's your day to day? Like, I mean,
like, what are you dealing with if you like to talk about it or not? I don't
know. Um, as far as day to day since, I mean, December 22nd, 2018, that's, uh,
my best friend and I got in to, I had *** self defense situation and I would
say that's probably where majority of, uh, you know, things stem from, but I
wouldn't necessarily say, um, you know, everything stemmed from that. I mean, I
have best friends that, you know, passed away from young ages from, you
know, gun violence and just not being in the right places at the right time
and just knowing that I have, you know, people that was, you know, close to me
or around me who's not in the situation or could be in the, in the same spot
that I am. But, um, I mean, just like when I go back home it's, it's, I'm
visiting, you know, some of, some of my friends who are, you know, at, at
gravesites and doing those things. So it's different when you feel like your
whole life is, you know, football player or everything is, is geared
towards this, but it's, it's so much more to, you know, just putting the
pads on. And, I mean, like I say, it's like you, you ask day to day, it's not
just that it's, you know, I'm school just got married. It's so many things
that, that comes with *** person. Um, but I, I feel like, you know, that was,
that's kind of one of my, one of my main things like trying to care for
yourself mentally after that incident was it, did you just push it away for
*** while? Um I would say with, with those, with that happening at such ***
young age. Uh my first couple of years, you just try to block everything out
and like, oh I'm, you know, at some point I'm gonna get over it and it just,
you start to realize that that just doesn't happen. Um You get older and
you realize that no matter the age, no matter the person, no matter the
situation, everyone needs help at some point. Um And it's just being able to
kind of step up and know no, this is the help I need or this is what I need
to ask for. I mean, and they were talking with my dad talking to my mom,
she was in the army, my dad passed marine ex ex cop. Uh So I mean, he's
sent me books. We've, we've communicated back and forth. It's not
just, you know, um, I have my support system here but I also have my support
system home. Um, and that's, I feel like that's the biggest thing. Uh, I'll
say now I'm, I'm probably the most level headed and, and, and clear that I,
that I've probably been within the last 55 or six years, your tweet that the
chief staff helped you get through your uh latest struggles. Is there some sort
of treatment or some sort of help that they're giving you that you really want
um to really go step by step, man. That'll be *** Julie Fry my question.
Uh I know everybody knows that name. I mean, she's amazing and, and even Rick
Rick Boro, he's, I mean, uh also amazing anything that I need, I just
kind of communicate to them, let them know just kind of how I'm feeling. And
um I mean, it's, it's ***, it's *** funnel of, of things that they go
through initially when they were asking me the questions, just trying to see,
you know, my, my temperament of certain things not really big on, on taking
medicine. So it's more of just having different mechanisms of, of, of coping
and having people to talk to who actually know or, you know, could,
could help me through those situations. Uh And it's not just the medical staff,
I mean, all the way down to you know, we are safer and, you know, some of the
guys who are on our security staff who, you know, ex cops, ex marines or just
those things. I mean, I'm, I'm *** guy who can talk to anybody and, uh, I mean,
if I can get the help from, I mean, even if it's one of you guys who I feel
e experience something or I could talk to, uh, *** different coping mechanism
that, that they feel help them. Uh I try my best to get whatever I need for
help so I can come out here and perform going through this. Um Honestly, it's, it, it just takes
the courage to talk about it and having P CS D and dealing with it. Um
Once people kind of bring it up, it's, it's not something that I always want
to talk about because I never really know how my body would react or, or my
mind. It's just, it's just something that, you know, I, I can't really
pinpoint or know exactly what was gonna happen, but really just having that, that safe
space and I feel like right now within those, those, those past two years and
actually being open with my dad, uh I mean, cause it was points that he told
me things that I feel like he never told anybody. I mean, even guys as part
of, part of probably part of his platoon or guys that he was deployed
with probably you know, haven't heard, heard the stories or they know exactly
what he's going through but they haven't talked about it to kind of let
that release go. So, um, I feel like talking is ***, is *** big thing but
it's just getting over that hump, personally, um, being able to know that
honestly, you know, just everybody goes through, goes through things good, bad,
just being able to cope with it and know everybody's human and everybody,
you know, is it some point it's *** stepping stone. I just 25 years old,
just trying to live the rest of my life healthy. How much is *** bond with someone, like
I say, it seems like you guys really close with that. Yeah, I mean, it's
having *** guy that, you know, I'm coming in the locker room, he's gonna
be smiling even though. So I feel like um *** lot of guys kinda tend to me for
that, for that spark. And as guys say, I'm goofy II, I feel like
I'm, I'm kinda aware of my surroundings uh most of the time, but um it's just
being able to kind of spread their energy and it's like if I'm that Debbie Downer or,
or, or that guy that's not gonna bring the energy. Like what else are you
gonna bring? So I feel like I kinda rubbed off on Isaiah early on just
cause I mean, it was, it's, it's *** learning path, learning curve. I mean,
I've, I've had ups and downs through, through my past five years here is just
being able to smile and, and get through it. And that's those things
he's dealt with injuries, he's dealt with, you know, those ups and downs and,
I mean, two Super Bowls, two years, he's, he's, he's on his high horse and
it's just being able to come in on those bad days on those good days and
still be able to smile. And that's, I feel like that's the best part with PTSD. What are you on your, on the
worst days? What are you dealing with? What's that like for you? Um, honestly,
man, II, I really, it's, yeah, I have PTSD and sickly
vomiting syndrome. So it's something that's kinda neurologically that they
just kind of help me with and, and walk through it and I mean, I've sometimes
I'm, I'm admitted into the hospital, something like can't, can't stop
throwing up and it's just, I can't like, know nothing pretty much to stop it.
And the only person who kind of put me in the right direction was, was Julie
fry my early on um to get me some, some of the meds, uh at the time when I am
probably going through an episode to get me over that hump. Uh, but it's,
it's real, real bad dehydration dropping, dropping real, real fast, but
it's really just mentally just not being, not being there. And it's, it's
one of those things where, you know, early on, like, uh, guys who kind of
pay attention, trash, uh, cads at times, they can even, like, they'll know, like,
ahead of time. Like, ok, Clyde might not, he's not laughing, he's not
giggling, he's not himself. Like, we just gotta make sure we checking on him
as the person not to just be out here, the, the energy giver, the laugh of the,
the guy that kind of keeps the locker room going. I, I feel like, you know,
that's, that's AAA big part of what I bring and then once my number call, you
know, it is go out there and perform and they know it, it's, it's no
question with that. So I feel like that's, that's just what it is. Is
there *** better way you might turn out to maybe other people that are dealing
with PTSD. Um, I would say dealing with PTSD, seek help when, when possible. Um, but
don't make it *** burden on *** person that's dealing with PTSD, uh, take little steps and walk them through
certain things don't try to be overwhelming. Uh, and then try to not
bring up the trauma as much as possible. Uh, even after, you know, unfortunately
after the parade, I've, I've either went on Facebook or Twitter. Uh, also,
and I just kinda wanted to remind everybody in Casey like it's not
something that you wanna keep bringing up, you know, you never wanna bring up
past traumas or bad things. Uh because, I mean, you never really know what
funnel that'll bring the next person down or what situation or what spot
that they were in during that, you know, during that time. So try to lead in po
positive direction. Um And I feel like being *** football player and, and kind
of being that, that stand up guy and, and guys who are looked up to, um I
feel like it was at least my job or some guys to kind of step up and, and,
and talk about the things that some people feel vulnerable enough not to
talk about.