I mean you know watching things back I was definitely enlightened by certain things that was happening in the house and certain things that you know in my gut I knew something was wrong but I couldn't pinpoint it and watching it back I feel so much more clear about what actually went wrong and so yeah I definitely I went into it knowing that I had to say what I had to say and get the closure that I needed and also I just really wanted to him to take this experience and learn from it you know um seeing the stuff that was going on online I just want him to take a step back and really grow from this because I truly do wish him the best uh what I said is was true like I respect that he was going out there and like trying to like do something um I feel like listen he dug him he dug himself into a hole that's hard to dig out of I respect that he tried I don't think there's any way he could have um and then Jen sort of came out there and gave it to him while I was like damn Jen forgot how fosi see her she held nothing back I mean that was crazy she looked hot and that was hot too yeah tonight coming into tonight did you have any kind of like apprehension any nerves like what were you thinking when you were going to be stepping out out of that stage for me it was more about just uh trying to set my wrongs uh to rights you know my entire like when it came to the guys itself this is a chance for us to kind of you know unresolve any tensions and for me my entire my entire Journey even there even though it was for Gen I also don't want to build a wall between all the individuals and the guys here to build Brides so for me I was really wanted to kind of uh shake their all shake their hands and I and I did yeah I feel really good about the night I feel like I had got everything out that I wanted to say um I think people were held accountable who needed to be held accountable too and I think yeah everything was said that I needed to say and I think it was a great night overall in my opinion so yeah I'm very happy hey it's no secret that this group of men was not bereth of drama and we kept that same energy coming into the tellw all yeah it was a shocker especially with the the subject matter and claims that people decide to flippantly throw out there when it's not really a joke to me you know I don't I hope nobody takes anything personally you know just a little bit of it is all love at the end of the day you know we went through this experience yeah we're not these perfect people that did everything right there's little moments that were highlighted to you know it's good to be able to explain them how you're feeling and and be able to let people react you know when we saw you go home tonight I was that was a little crushed when you watching it all back just tell me what your feelings were yeah I mean you know in the moment you're down to the vinyl 3 everybody has really just raw emotions and they can there's love involved no matter how you put it but when I watched it back you know I didn't know what Marcus or Devon were feeling or doing and on her end you know she was she said she was in love with Marcus and Deon said she was in love with her and her and I just weren't there so watching it back I'm like it just it in my mind it just only showed like what was already her reality you know whether I thought it was cuz I couldn't get there I was too late I just don't think we were to the depth that she had with those other two guys and you know that was hard to watch but other than that like seeing our journey back and really just getting the watch everything that we shared was amazing want more Entertainment News follow on the red carpet on social And subscribe on YouTube