TODAY IS DAY 27. HERSHEY'S STILL NOT HOME. 52 75
86. TODAY IS DAY 100 SINCE MY
SON WAS STOLEN FROM ME. IT'S SAD TO BE KNOWN FOR
SOMETHING REALLY PAINFUL AND REALLY SCARY. AND THAT'S WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF
WHEN THEY SEE ME. EVERY TIME WE SPOKE TO ANYONE IN THE MEDIA, THEY
WOULD SAY, HOW MANY DAYS HAS IT
BEEN? SO I JUST TOOK MASKING TAPE AND
STARTED TO MAKE THESE NUMBERS AND IT MAKES PEOPLE REALLY ASK HOW ARE WE ALLOWING THIS TO
CONTINUE TO HAPPEN? THE HOSTAGE FAMILIES HAVE TO
PRETEND TO BE NORMAL IF WE WANT TO FUNCTION AND IF WE
WANT TO SAVE THEM FIRST THING IN THE MORNING, I ALWAYS SAY TO MYSELF AND NOW PRETEND TO BE HUMAN AND I GET OUT OF BED AND I PUT ON THIS COSTUME OF BEING A PERSON. I HAVE A WALK THAT I DO NOW IN THE
MORNINGS THAT I'VE CRAFTED SO THAT I DON'T SEE ANYBODY AND
I WALK WITH MY HEAD DOWN AND I ALWAYS WEAR SUNGLASSES. I
OFTEN HAVE A HOOD. IF I SEE PEOPLE IN THE DISTANCE,
I CROSS TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE
STREET. AND ALL DAY LONG, IT'S KIND OF LIKE SOMEONE'S
HOLDING A BRANDING IRON ON YOUR
BACK AND YOU CAN'T LET ANYBODY KNOW. I WAS ASKED EARLY ON IF I WOULD SPEAK AT THE UNITED
NATIONS IN NEW YORK. AND SO I DID, WHY IS NO ONE CRYING OUT FOR
THESE PEOPLE TO BE ALLOWED
ACCESS TO THE RED CROSS? WHY IS NO ONE DEMANDING JUST PROOF OF LIFE? WE FELT THAT THE ADVOCACY FOR
THE HOSTAGE SITUATION WAS SO IMPORTANT THAT WE REALLY
NEVER WANTED TO SAY NO FOR I'VE HAD EPISODES WHERE I DO BREAK. IT'S BETTER WHEN I KNOW THAT
IT'S COMING AND I CAN, YOU KNOW,
SAY I'LL BE RIGHT BACK AND YOU KNOW, GO TO MY ROOM OR GO TO THE
BATHROOM OR GO SOMEWHERE WHERE
IT'S NOT SO PUBLIC, BUT THAT'S NOT THE WAY TRAUMA WORKS. SO THERE ARE DEFINITELY TIMES WHERE I'M OUT THERE SCREAMING OR CRYING OR LAYING ON THE STREET. THINK YOU OUT. I'M ALSO EXTREMELY HEARTBROKEN OVER THE UNBELIEVABLE SUFFERING OF HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF
INNOCENT GAZAN PEOPLE, WHAT THEY ARE GOING THROUGH.
IT'S UNBEARABLE AND SO PAINFUL TO WATCH. RIGHT NOW. THERE ARE HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS
OF PEOPLE SUFFERING IN THIS ON BOTH SIDES AND IT'S TIME FOR THE SUFFERING TO STOP THAT. ON SHABBAT MORNING, I SIT DOWN CROSS LEG RIGHT IN FRONT OF THIS
BIG POSTER THAT WE HAVE OF HIM THAT IS BEHIND
OUR FRONT DOOR. I LOOK INTO HIS EYES AND I TALK TO HIM AND I TELL HIM
YOU HAVE TO STAY STRONG,
MENTALLY, SPIRITUALLY, PSYCHOLOGICALLY, PHYSICALLY,
RELIGIOUSLY, YOU HAVE TO
SURVIVE. YOU HAVE NO CHOICE. WE ARE
COMING. YOU CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS AND
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE A LONG,
BEAUTIFUL LIFE.