Hy recalled experiencing a miscarriage during a performance early in their career at 20 years old Hy began miscarrying just before a show despite feeling unwell they continued with the performance wearing an adult diaper and Performing for about 45 minutes after the show they became ill and spent the night in a hotel before flying to Canada the next morning Hy described the emotional complexity they felt including relief confusion guilt and grief they questioned their ability to carry a pregnancy to term especially at a young age Hy revealed they had misgar three times before turning 24 and discussed the life-saving nature of an abortion during one miscarriage the singer also shared their struggles with endometriosis lupus te- cell disorder and infertility despite these challenges Hy expressed a strong desire for more children and reflected on the guilt they felt about not being able to be the best parent due to their health issues