now you see Tyler sash Junior seal Dave doron I and I could go on and on guys that love life like Junior seal was a great player and if there was a person that I would have said that person will live forever and will love every day that he's he's living that would have been Junior seal and he boom he kills himself and you know so I see those I hear about those and I think I would never be that that way and I'm sure Junior seal would have said the same thing Tyler sash would have said the same thing Dave Duron as an example would have said the same thing but yet it happened to them