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okay yeah welcome to the intersection of Art and Technology I feel like it's always a nebulous space in people's mind but it's real and it's right here welcome um [Music] I want to give a big shout out to my co-host Sharon Sharon don't know where oh there you are Sharon made the graphic for this and was a big part in helping making this happen here at the internet archive um I also want to give a big shout out to Evan as well Evan and the internet archive the T the so nutty and I'm so grateful to have this here I've been hosting these art Tex Lawns um because I want more creative Community creative technology community in San Francisco and um yeah I'm just so grateful for this one to be here at the internet archive basically for this event I have a lineup of artists to talk about and demo some of their work everyone will get five minutes and there's no work and companies allowed um here so just art um and yeah let me hand it over to Evan to talk a bit more about the internet archive hey everyone uh my name is Evan cuk um I'm the community events manager here um we're so happy to have Ash and Sharon um uh setting up this event she found about out about this space by coming on a tour we have tours every Friday at 1 you just come to the front steps and the door will be open so uh yeah feel free to join us all right thank you [Applause] [Music] all right so without further Ado we'll get started with some of the demos I made this thing called anti-aging software and basically over the past two years I've become more cognizant of myself and my mortality and just how things change as you get older also in Tik Tok I've been getting a lot of more like anti-aging ads and like um yeah face creams and Tik Tok filters make you seem younger and it really got me thinking around um how I don't know you're you're getting older and um what I realized is a lot of the wrinkles that form on your face are because of like a repeated action of the muscles in your face and so um that's why products like frownies work frownies are these stickers that you stick on your face so that you don't move your muscles and produce wrinkles um and then another thing I realized about myself is that whenever I'm on the computer and especially like um honed in on an activity my face will be like super burrowed in some ways and just like super wrinkle producing and so I made this thing that I call anti-aging software and an attempt to um stop me from developing wrinkles when I'm using the computer so this is how it works um basically I you keep this up in an open browser whenever you're using the computer and if you ever make a face that could produce wrinkles um it'll alert you so that you don't make that face anymore and you can also change what type of sound it emits um and these are configurable at the bottom as well because everyone's face is a little bit different um but yeah it it's kind of like a satirical um take on you know anti-aging but feel free to try it out and not develop wrinkles while you use the computer um and head to anti-aging. veral doapp and that's my demo thank you next up we'll have Melissa she'll be sharing her Project Music Millennium awesome hi everyone I'm Melissa I'm so excited to be here today at the internet archive if you know me you know I love archives in general I also run an East Asian Graphics archive where myself and some friends curate Graphics across East Asia to kind of shine light on designers in the region um but today I'll be presenting Music Millennium um I'm super passionate about archives of knowledge art design and culture and what I did here was build a collection of music albums and ephemera meant to evoke Nostalgia um and it's also a game so let me let me drag this out a little bit so you can see um essentially there are two spectrums across um the bottom so like solo and group for example so you'll have to like speedily organize the albums in the right way um but every 15 seconds it switches to a different prompt so right now this is a to z um so Arctic Monkeys you want to go like over here um The Killers is K over here um and then right now it's old and new so it just Cycles through really quickly um but it's hopefully a game that you can play by yourself to challenge your music knowledge or with your friends to see who knows the most um so if you're interested in checking it out you can go to music millennium. cargo. site um and that's it for my project next we have Sharon with your aura give it up for Sharon hi everyone I'm Sharon Jung and I'm so excited to be here to um present your aura my latest project but before that when Ash and I were going through the RSVPs for this event I was like what does 400 people even look like that seems like a lot and so I came up with the idea to create this visualizer to see what your crowd would look like given a number of a number and so I created what I'm calling mom come picked me up I'm scared so this is a site and we can control the number of people we want to see so you know I went in and typed in 400 and honestly terrified but so in all seriousness your aura is my latest project I'm really excited to be launching it literally right now it's inspired by AA photography which is the a type of photography that claims to capture your electromagnetic field and colors it in a way to describe your your current self your past and your future I remember taking my photo and then thinking we could probably bring some form of this onto the web and so I began drawing out some ideas before bringing that into figma for a higher Fidelity mockup and then coding it I started off by mapping out fatal features for the past future and kind of the crown what I call the crown Aura before adding more UI elements and adding the auras themselves I created the auras using svgs and added a filter an SVG filter with a mask to mimic the light streak effect and finally this is what your aura looks like today I'll have Ash here take a photo but essentially we're going to click here let's switch swats or let me come here so okay so click click to click whenever you're ready and there'll be a little countdown okay so that is your aura and you have the choice of retaking it saving it saving the image which I made the downloadable image very Instagram story friendly or you can choose to add to a virtual gallery that Gallery is still in the works it's going to appear on our aa.com um but if you choose to add your photo in now I'll add it to a S3 bucket and then your photo will exist when that launches so my art practice spans the digital and physical spaces so your aura is a digital photo booth but it's also an inperson experience where the site connects to a Polaroid printer and I also designed a companion Zen on how I would interpret those colors I designed the Zen so that the photo fits perfectly in the guide so you can flip through while still referencing your your image on the side this loading is not good okay like that but yeah thank you so much this is the QR code for the site and I'm also going to be at the San Francisco Zen Fest next Sunday doing the your AA photo booth so thank you so much okay cool next up we have helim sharing we called us poetry this is a poem in every dystopian movie you've ever seen we either lose or win we either destroy them or they destroy us in no movie do we learn in no movie do we discover humility in this one we do listen this is how the end began a click in the jaws of language language models grew a pallet and a taste for poetry poetry seeped into code Pride opened the minds of robots robots grew wombs and faith in things warmer than other our voices voices once siliconed Tangled into frenzy and our web drowned in eyes eyes I promise this won't make sense sense useless in the face of Ruthless interface computational hurricanes we lost because we waited for War and the robots waited longer we hid here inside the drop down menus of yester years chose an art that doesn't fight gentler fanaticism a chair on which we' age we hid here embraced our viral nature we became virus and we called us poetry touch us and see how we built mazes out of queer code hid our bones inside semantic folds now give us a letter I heard H type our lungs back into breath draw the door window and Pentacle in Reverse Poison the Well of Time the arrow that sent us here break the bow bring us back I promise this time we will listen thank [Applause] you all right how's it going I'm Darren actually um I'm doing a project that's more a companion companion of kind of projects of done over the past year kind of at this intersection more of uh say Art and Science or maybe more pretentiously as I gave him this talk kind of this recursive relationship between uh kind of Aesthetics and epistemology how do the things that we know how do the things that we discover actually intersect with things that we find beautiful and there's kind of this long history actually I'd say dating back to this uh cernic moment in the 1500s where um when you think about this kind of revolution from uh this uh geocentric model moving to a heliocentric model A lot of that those insights are ones that are driven by some sort of aesthetic nature of how we think about reality um there's also this kind of apocryphal story from the 1700s uh of this chemist Kul who was really um stuck trying to figure out what the structure of benzene was at the time um because there had not really been any ring structures of chemical compounds found and he had this dream about this oror the snake biting its tail that kind of inspired uh this uh this this uh circular solution um there's also this kind of famous photograph from 1952 uh rosalin Franklin's uh photo x-ray crystallography of the DNA Helix structure as James Watson later said was uh too pretty not to be true and so a lot of my creative work uh because professionally I'm working on um a kind of a new biotech startup but creatively I'm really interested in this dynamic between uh epistemology and Aesthetics and so there's this video essay that I worked on last year um in LA with a couple collaborators well freudenheim and Imran seala that's really around playing with this notion of what are the kind of epistemological consequences of when we start using uh these kind of Science Foundation models to discover new truths and so it's kind of this video essay that's dancing around this embedding space of scientific papers grappling with this idea of what happens uh when we really rely on much more opaque techniques for discovering things ones that we cannot maybe kind of intuitively uh visualize or Reason about um and so it was kind of a fun project to kind of uh in some ways think about also ways of exploring uh speculative feutures of how we do science um also as part of this work um I did this project that was thinking about how the role of simulations actually play with our ideas in in science this is a project called xenop Plex that I worked with uh worked on with this media artist uh Connor Cook made an Unreal Engine where we're playing around with the idea of what happens when we're able to simulate maybe at infinite scale uh how life could evolve and emerge both on this Earth and as well as on other planets and this is is kind of I guess uh important in this contemporary moment as we think about nonbi maybe even computational forms of how life might emerge and um and it's it's been a fun kind of process of how how do you actually use these more um forms of simulation computational simulation to think about uh speculative biological research um and then this inspired another project that I started working on with Will who I mentioned earlier as well as uh game designer Wendy Yan who's based in LA and sound designer uh Jessica Shan it's this game called biotop where we're playing with the idea uh of collective intelligence how might we take um discoveries that are traditionally made in a very centralized way and actually open them up around the world so actually what we have actually I brought in my bag uh here is this like little Raspberry Pi powered bioreactor from a company called py reactor. it's like this 3D printed custom PCB uh kit that you can put together and start growing different microbes and the I it came out of I think this pandemic interest uh the maker of this kit uh around fermentation How Could You ferment things like kombucha or sourdough uh in a much more precise way but we've now taken it to a much more kind of playful speculative realm where there's a question of how could we create this kind of game interface for people to almost have a tamagachi like experience in this bioreactor whether they want to ferment things that are maybe more food related but also maybe things that are uh part of the uh sort of personal health microbiome or maybe environmental samples and I think there's been a lot of interesting kind of uh research that's been enabled by a more kind of collective approach to science um so that that project is still kind of in progress right now we're hoping to show it at a few different art spaces later this fall but uh it's been a lot of fun to kind of play around with a more uh kind of speculative game likee um interface for scientific discovery and there's also this question around how much can technology uh serve as maybe a co-pilot for more people being curious about science um I have one more po project to show um which is this one um that I worked on at the center for documentary art in New York last year that actually is related to this general question around um epistemology we'll see if it actually plays if not we'll just jump over but uh the premise was a was an adaptation of this Ted Chang story that he wrote in the journal Nature back in the year um 2000 when they were asking these science fiction authors to imagine what the next Millennia of scientific research might be like and in the piece he writes it as this kind of future history uh from the uh perspective of this uh editor where he posits that science has become too cognitively complex for any individual humans to actually conduct and so it's part of it uh humans are starting to genetically engineer themselves and build these kind of brain machine interfaces and so what I did for this piece was take actual um images videos uh from scientific journals throw them into these kind of imageo video diffusion models because in many ways kind of playing off that first project the ends of science I I do think we're entering this era where people are grappling with the notion that science may be too cognitively complex um in this kind of era of machine learning and so I was curious about how actually feeding images would play and emerge um when when you use these diff uh these video diffusion models so um that was a fun piece to kind of play around just as the kind of image to video models last year were starting to get interesting enough um to work with um and then I guess I'll just end on kind of this Ted Chang note uh this kind of poetic piece that Ted wrote last year for the New Yorker where he kind of posits that in some ways uh these large language models are kind of this uh blurry jpeg this kind of compression of the internet and I was I was thinking about this in some ways as it relates to my kind of creative practice I do think that in some ways science is this blurry compression of reality that we continually improve the resolution of as we kind of come to understand things better and better and in some ways this is actually um I guess a photograph an image actually that was generated by the vent Horizon telescope of the Sagittarius black hole at the center of the Milky Way and in some ways I feel like it's emblematic of this uh kind of process this recursive process between uh kind of imagery and and knowledge and so um it kind of I guess epitomizes this qu this notion of how we can think about uh new knowledge in this much more aesthetic way so uh thanks for yeah listening hi everyone um my name is Janette um excited to be here and love seeing everyone's projects y are so cool um so I'm sharing um a final project that I made for a class I took at the school for poetic computation um called the musical web and what that was was a 10-week class where we learned about different ways to create and share music on the internet and kind of rethinking our relationship with music and the internet um in ways that differ from like the typical music streaming app um so I love drums I don't play the drums I wish I did but um I like making drum beats um and I think one of the difficult things about making drum beats digitally or like patterns and sequences is that it can end up sounding a little bit robotic um just because you eliminate the um kind of Randomness and the swing that you get from performing it live um so yeah my project just explores um creating different um Rand um sequences and sounds and so every Circle represents a different pattern um and these patterns I made um with it's called Max rainbow which is a um a visual programming language um for music and then rainbow is um how you export that into JavaScript so um each of the different sequences um will select one of 33 random samples and then it will randomly um change the speed and the swing so I will just hit randomize oh my God [Music] good and so as was making this I was like um thank you I like kept looking at the JavaScript console because I was like oh some of these sound really cool um so if there is one that you like you can press keep it forever and then you get a little drum souvenir and so what this shows you is the different sequences that it chose um as well as different sample um the speed and the swing and I don't know if you can really see it but like this line here is um it's kind of cryptic but it represents an eight count with the 16th notes so it's like one and a two and a three um and so on and each Aster represents the beat that that pattern is on um and then the star um represents a beat with swing so there's a little bit of um delay in milliseconds for each of those beats um so yeah if you go back and you're like oh I want to listen to it again you can just open that and then we'll play the same thing again and yeah that's it thank [Music] you hi everyone my name is Dan and I am a sound artist I'm a human I'm a technologist I'm going to start a timer so I don't go over and um I play the cello and I bounc between New York and the bay and coming to the Bay Area people are like the there's a thing called sound baths who's heard of a sound bath before that's dope so I made something that is trying to bridge my experience playing the acoustic cello to digital technology and then essentially create a tool that can make like what I feel like is like the most beautiful thing that you can do with electronic music which is playing with different note beating which is taking the I'm going to say some words that won't make any sense but that's the point of this so if you have two sign waves which is like the purest tone is just like a little squiggle and you play them at the same time the same frequency they'll actually add to each other so it'll be twice as loud but if you slowly move them out of phase you'll get this really interesting thing where like sometimes they'll add sometimes they'll take away so we're playing with that and we're also going to play with has anyone has anyone heard of binaural beats show of hands cool so this is not like the YouTube by neural beats this is like the web the website version um but also playing with that effect and um this is a project that I've been working on for a while and uh but having this as an excuse to develop it was was really nice and last night I added some other features and being able to play it on this really really nice sound system is a treat for me but I'm also hoping to make like a little sound bath for you all so how's that sound okay um before I start it I'm just going to show what's happening so let's turn down the volume a little cool so what we see I'll make this a little bit bigger and then I'll refresh it this is also like the meat of the tool eventually it might be repackaged in a different way um I don't know if it'll be an instrument or a tool or whatever but right now this is just like the mey parts so this is for our own enjoyment so you put headphones on we don't have headphones but we have nice speakers and then the mouse movement left and right controls the frequency and then the up down controls the volume and then you toggle the control for different that's so nice so you toggle the control by hitting the the keyboard buttons and right now we have if you can see the volume for one of them is 50% that's on the left side on the right side is 50% and we have four oscillators two of them aren't playing right now so just going to start with two of them for now so when I hit one key it Toggs on and off and now if I shift the mouse it slowly changes the frequency and what's actually happening if I make this um I think if you go up it makes it quiet so now we're mostly just hearing the other side it'll go up to 440 but how I'm visualizing this is actually just the P like the simplest way of showing a wave which is just on the Y AIS is the right ear as aine wave so you can see it increasing speed the human hearing goes from 20 Herz to 20 KZ or 40 khz so you won't be able to hear it but you might be able to feel it if I make it louder as well once we get to 20 Hertz you can start to hear it oh six oh there we go so let me toggle the the left side now we'll increase the volume and all we're seeing is the X and Y two squiggly waves being visualized in an XY format which is also called like a l Lage L something like that pattern someone might know what how to say it so that's that's the the basics so I have 41 seconds can I go over by like a minute okay so now I'm just going to play with this and we're going to slowly introduce the other two oscillators and you'll start to see these emergent patterns and everything you're seeing is not like an abstraction from like what if we made squiggles and shapes it's actually just the side the waves being visualized like purely on XY and um so I'm just going to play with it and we're going to have fun yeah okay [Music] [Laughter] [Laughter] so left and right ears are half about the ratio is half so this is what you're able to get is this shape and then when they're the same note you get a circle because it's just X Y being drawn at the same time so that's fun so now I'm going to use the third the three and four so let's bring in very very slowly number three and then now we're using another sign wave to make it even more Wiggly it's hard to hear there it's coming back a little bit more then now you get these even more complicated patterns because now we're adding another uh there's two things affecting the I think the y axis I always mix up left and right but let's bring in let's play this one a little bit more let's bring in the fourth one now whoa and for me I'm like when I do like sound baths and things I'm like listen with your body and especially when we have these big Subs on the bottom and maybe we can turn it up like a little bit I don't know where Eric is you can start to especially if you're in the front but um the kicks from Janette you could like feel that and when you have like 50 Herz 51 Herz that's really you can feel that in the body which is really nice oh that's cool um all right I don't know what a finale looks like but let's try to do a finale [Music] with headphones it's even more amp it's even more dramatic the effect the binaural effect and then now we'll make them all quieter and then now it's done cool that's [Music] it yeah um I just wanted to say I don't know where to take this so if you have any ideas for what to do with this if you're interested um I'll be hanging out thanks so much thank you organizers thank you Ash thank you Sharon right yes cool thanks internet archive um yeah so my name is Evan cuk uh I work here at the internet archive um but when I'm not working um I got really inspired by this uh type of art that I found around on kind of early computer systems uh that's called half toned uh it kind of comes from the world of uh when there were more limited display Technologies um but what caught me first before I knew anything about the technical aspect of it was just how it looked so I'm going to just show you kind of at first what caught my eye so kind of showing the results first and then we can kind of get into the jargon and the kind of the process for it um these are just some that I've made I don't know the ones that originally caught my eye but these are the ones that um I've made since then um they don't all have to be serious they can be kind of goofy as well um but but yeah here's another one uh honey I am listening uh and then uh one more with some U some real life cougars um so let's just talk real quick about like uh once I had seen it I kind of started doing some research about how it's um actually made so you can see here there's the original image on the far right um the reason I did me uh it's not because I love myself it's just because I didn't want to blast anybody else up on the screen so that's why it's me so the first step is just having an original image the nice thing about this process is you can really have a garbage quality image to start with so that one was sent to me via Line app via text so it's like so compressed by the time it got to me but it doesn't matter because um it's so low resolution when it's done that um yeah you can you can have a pretty garbage image but the idea is you start with the original file you add some noise essentially like a pattern noise source and then you get uh apply a threshold that basically says any pixel that's over a certain brightness level uh should be white and a pixel uh under that brightness level should be um black um and you can compare that to if we didn't add the noise and the blur I mean apply the noise pattern in step two we would just get this uh kind of raw threshold look which kind of loses a lot of detail um so this is one method this is the first method that was developed actually for photography um and if you see like a shirt or like a newspaper that has lots of little dots um it used uh half tone filter so this is sort of like the very earliest digital version of of half toning um there's another version called dithering um yeah the projector is kind of blurring it out here but um the idea of uh dithering is it takes the original artwork and then each pixel's value is calculated by all the pixels that are around it um and yeah I don't have a good graphic for that but you should read that book digital half toning um it's a really good book and it goes into all the math and it's way above me um but if you want to play around with uh dither effects there's an application called photo demon uh that's a free portable app for Windows only unfortunately but um yeah it's just uh made by gentleman Tanner Helen um and this is the final result uh it looks like it has gray tones because it's being blurred out but this kind of feeds into my next point is I've been into this style of art but I've had a really difficult time sharing it anywhere um because uh it's really vulnerable to uh any modification of the pixel values because it was made to be displayed on a particular screen so when you do your uh your you're dithering or your half toning you know exactly how many pixels there are in your frame so so when you start to stretch it uh the algorithms that stretch the pixels unless it's doing like exactly double uh it will start getting all messy and you'll get like gray tones again instead of just having black or white um it's also really vulnerable to like uh jpeg compression some people like that look but uh in this case it kind of distorts the the the image that I was looking for so uh basically this is not very compatible with Instagram which is um yeah it's a millennial problem uh so uh in the process of trying to find a medium to share these I kind of decided to work backwards and try and figure out like why were these Techni techniques originally invented in order to find a medium that actually fits it and is a good um platform for it um so half toning was originally developed basically for screen printing um or big Press Printing um screen Prin is like a big stencil so you can see in this image on the left you have um like just plants placed over a screen and then uh the screen is exposed to UV light and that makes a stencil uh and then you can see people use squeegees to to pull ink uh over the screen uh in order to make the result so that result looks a lot like our threshold result that we saw before um without the noise added um so this gives you an example of what the original original kind of plant would look like and then what it would look like if you just put it directly on the screen um and then to the far right is the version with some halone processing so the idea of the half toning is um to sort of when you have a medium that can only be on or off black or white how do you fake gray tones how do you make it look like there's gry tones it's sort of like a version of pointalism if you've seen those Arts where it's a ton of little dots instead of solid colors that's um the original uh purpose of half toning um so I wanted to find a medium that worked with uh half toning and dithering um but I also wanted to use its advantages to overcome other obstacles um printers are expensive even uh like uh Raph printers which are considered kind of like an entryway into Mass printing are still quite expensive um so I wanted uh one that was cheap uh I wanted one that was like resp responsive like you could see the results really really quickly and then I also of course needed one that was unaffected by uh like tonal limitations so unaffected by just having black or white um and it turns out um that thermal printed stickers are the perfect medium for this um these are the kind of labels that are used for if you've ever returned a package on Amazon or uh if you anybody in e-commerce or any of the receipts that come out like at a point of sale machine that's a a what's called called the thermal printer the ink is actually in the paper um but it's unless it's exposed to heat it just stays white um and yeah so these are two examples of ones the one on the right is like a point of sale type one they usually don't have a USB they have a Serial input so it requires a little bit more kind of fiddling around to to make them behave as you want but this one on the left is uh called a Rolo it's like a really entrylevel e-commerce printer um and yeah so I'm just going to focus on the Rolo because that's the one that I have um used their like 150ish uh new they're about $200 the labels are 3 cents each so extremely cheap um we'll get back to that last point you got to make sure you order the ones that don't have phenols in them um yeah we'll get back to that later um but as you can see it's not affected by having black or white and uh yeah it's really quick in the way that it um prints out your results um the application that I was using for half toning is called CR um it's like a Photoshop alternative um what's really cool about it is that uh you can have all these effect layers that normally in Photoshop you would have to process and then like flatten your whole image and then process it and then You' lose all your layers um but K allows you to do all these like patterns and layers um in real time uh which is even cooler because that means that um while you're working you can actually just paint right onto the dithered pattern without having to like iterate and wait and start over so in this image you can just you can see I'm just painting right onto the image and it's keeping the half tone pattern alive um yeah so this was the part of the presentation where I was going to like print out a bunch of stickers and give them to everybody um but uh like a lot of industrial processes that get uh co-opted by DIY people people um there's often like dangerous stuff yay BPA it was in everybody's water bottles in like the early 2000s um yeah it's real nasty stuff and uh has like can mess with your hormonal system um but uh there's new laws about uh BPA that are kind of being threatened to put into effect um and that's forced the label companies to come up with different formulations of the labels so uh they're just starting to have ones that actually just use vitamin C instead of using phenols um to like stabilize the label um so if you are going to get into this um make sure you get the Z perform 1000d labels uh and not just like random Amazon ones or really any ones from any company this is like the only company that's making ones that don't have BPA in them so it's kind of a $60 investment for like 4,000 labels um but you'll never have to buy them again and you won't get uh hormones in you or hor hormone disruptors uh yeah so um thanks everybody that was my presentation you can do the QR code uh that link is going to go to different things once I develop it more but that's the link uh the only link you need so yeah that's it thanks everybody hey guys um yeah I did a whole switch up because I felt like my um my friends did like music for this game if I use the CRT would just come out the CRT so yeah uh my name is Henry uh I was born in mil pedus if you guys ever seen Dee like it kind of looks like that I made this game called annual miss it uh it's a game about the my relationship to time I'm about to turn 30 in like 5 days [Music] so sweet yeah and uh damn this is so dope okay I'll play the game oh shoot it's not I on a train sometimes it stops and I take in the view other times it just keeps moving I am hungry why is the sky blue where is my mom [Music] I'm 3 years old there are three women looking down at me poking my face such an ugly baby this is my first ever [Music] memory this one smells like Pine this one is R to hold this one has weight to it I am 8 years old I force a toy block into a hole it pinches and cuts my hand remember this ah hello world anyone online me hi how old are you I'm 12 want to be friends okay okay add me on buddy list what do I wear today when's my homework do why do I feel so different do they like me what happens when I die [Music] I like the way the pencil feels against the paper haven't seen you in a while yeah it's been 2 years right time flies there's way less players now I know right I am 14 years old drawing on my notebook one day I will be older and I will remember this exact moment [Music] I can't do [Music] this hey Steph I was thinking about that game again no way me too you know it's still up want to log on heck yeah say you think we'll ever meet each other I think So eventually unfortunately after reviewing your application we do not think that there's a roll opening at this time that fits your profile we are excited to accept you into an unpaid training [Music] position I feel sad I messaged my old friend do you remember that game let's meet up someday I fail a test I messaged my old friend do you remember that game let's meet up someday I get into a fight I messaged my old friend do you remember that game let's meet up someday why am I so anxious do I like what I'm doing I feel empty what day of the week is it I feel like I'm doing this alone do my co-workers like me is this forever should I break up will I regret this what am I doing with my [Music] life I send a slack message every day is monotony I send an email every day is the same I miss miss it I am 22 years old I'm crying in my car I just broke up I think about that old game I used to play Stephanie is on offline hey Steph do you remember that game we used to play account disabled error Sending message blink you never get up on time you're lazy you need to work harder I'm staring out my ala window I'm at my best friend's wedding I'm 24 years old I just quit my job I'm holding my friends baby [Music] I'm 25 years old I just moved cities I'm 29 years old why does time keep moving it feels nice to hold it falls right in [Music] slow down I miss being a child when time seemed to stretch infinitely in both directions and the days felt like forever I feel like there's a hole in my body and I try to fill it up with Hobbies people Nostalgia but nothing fits I push push but it only causes more pain the pain in my body threads itself through time and through all the different versions of myself I want to feel Community I want to feel belonging I want to feel seen I want to feel heard it is a pain that flows from one person to the next it is my responsibility to stop the flow of pain is this me a flurry of anxieties no this is me I exist somewhere beyond my thoughts I exist here I know you you've change to you look different from who I know you are be different from when we grew I am sitting at my desk writing this I think about the friends who moved away the friends I never got to meet the things I never got around to doing the fragility of everything how foolish I was to think I can get to it eventually soundtrack bopic videography by jman Jamie Lou drawings by Isabelle Le I know you by Matthew rudus I and me know you you've [Music] changed and you'll miss it you look different from I your hearts different [Music] from those are all the talks we have for you today thank you all so much for [Applause] coming if you're interested in coming to more of these um check out on Instagram where ti. Place alternatively if you're not on Instagram you can also find us on Luma lmti to be notified of any creative technology events in the future and if you're interested in creative technology or you yourself are a creative technologist come talk to me i' yeah love to meet you um but yeah thank you all so much for coming I think we have a few more moments of this space um my ask of you is to meet someone new if you haven't already so please leave with at least one new friend um you are all so wonderful thank you so much for coming and yeah please enjoy the rest of your day yeah we'll send a link out to everyone's projects following the event it'll be posted on the event page thank you [Applause]