look at this one look at the top one there been so many times sharing my story where I have wished I didn't people were like writing to me saying you're such a narcissist look at me the biggest attention seeker ever who else would dance in the garden whil having to cut the hair [Music] off but these are people that probably spend their whole life just trying to cause other people distress because that's the kind of people they are at the time I'd already felt I my whole everything about me Stripped Away my identity and that and of course I would have done anything in the world to actually be not dancing in my friend's Garden about to shape my hair but to be dancing with my best friends on Strictly and then people write to me going you're not even stage four I'm like that's really you know it's so bad guys I didn't even know what my outcome was so for people to be like messaging like that I already felt hard to even look in the mirror for anybody going through cancer it's enough to be going through it never mind with any added draws and there is no text book on how you should deal with it there's no right or wrong you do what you need to do um and just be kind guys if we can be anything let's be kind yeah