with okay so because I was a tennis player I dealt with like a lot of pressure before talk because I played tennis it was I know how to [ __ ] go all right just like I was just like running around with my balls and playing hitting stuff but like my I had a basically a tennis career before this which was I dealt with a lot of performance anxiety and a lot of situations and I actually like did not love competing MH and I think with when I approached comedy I was like okay this time around let's be nice star yeah we're not doing it for anyone else but ourselves you don't have to like torture yourself and I've had this really like nice relationship with comedy where like I'm always like you're learning you're growing you're doing like I'm reparenting myself through comedy my in child child healing through comedy