you know I did stuff that should have been a home run and then it wasn't like eternals you know it's it's it was it was uh Oscar winning director the one of the craziest casts you know you had like Legends you had Salma Hayek you had Angelina Jolie you had new people who are amazing Brian Tyreek Henry Barry kogen who have both been nominated for Oscar you thought it was just a slam dunk I was like this is going to be a slam dunk and it'll be great it'll open all the stuff for me and going into it was great for me cuz I was like I need to have fun do it this movie and so I just and I did and I was like I understand this movie In My Bones I understand superheroes I understand sci-fi I understand like sci-fi epics and so I had the best time doing that movie and I realized this is what work should feel like however when that movie came out and the reviews weren't good that was very very tough for me and I realized that too much of how I'm evaluating what I want to do is based on the result what other people think of it me too my whole life was that I I remember going you know doing a movie and saying oh these people earn it like you said and you know it's it's a big studio and I remember even being so obsessive is that the right word I think with with each scene going okay this scene I was really good in that's that that's good that's going to be good this scene you know I think I was good in that I think and like evaluating every scene yeah like that scene I wasn't quite but I think it'll be okay cuz the one before I was good and the one after I was good so they'll Bridget and then you know they'll see this and then this this should you know I should be all projecting all the stuff that I my therapist says if you can't control it if you can't change it shove it yeah shove the just and what you're saying is enjoying the ride yes one of my friends said um he had a movie that bombed I mean Rosen bombed and he said um I go how do you feel about it he goes well I thought about it like this if I was the young me and somebody says you're going to be the lead actor in a movie and you're going to direct the movie yeah would you even be thinking about and you're going to make money yeah I mean you wouldn't be thinking about anything but just like this is great this is fun let's have fun and there were moments on set where I was having fun and enjoying in the moment but we we can't control that and the more I try to enjoy what I'm doing the process yeah it it makes life so much easier it does and it but it is a constant you have to be intentional about it