after the summer and it really hurt to miss out what did to today mean to you everything you know just then at the end you know going to the fans and hearing them seeing my name and stuff uh listen there's no everyone will say the exact same thing there's no better feeling you know than playing for England especially in games like this you know when you know the whole nation you know is going to be watching and stuff like that so over the summer you know I've said it before and interview honestly it was yeah probably one of the worst Summers you know of of my life because you can't not see everything that's happening in front of you so um it was difficult but you know it's G me you know more um what's that word more something to bounce back than word