[Music] I'm stressed but if I get a rose today it'll feel incredible [Music] I told Jen from the beginning I was a bit of a slow bur but after our overnight I can see a future with her I can see her as part of my family you know she has these amazing relationships with these other guys and I've never let the thought of other people's relationships get into my head until today I think what we have is great I don't know how great it is compared to these two guys Marcus and Devon are great guys but I'm My Own Worst Enemy and I regret the fact that I was not able to just jump in sooner you know I want to just express to her how I really feel I just hope to God that I'm not too late because I know she is the one for me [Music] it's nice to see you guys um going into this week I had a lot of questions specifically regarding what a future would look like with each of you and it was a really revealing time for me I revealed parts of my heart and parts of my soul to you guys and I felt things that I've never felt before so from the bottom of my heart thank you for everything it's not easy for me to have to send somebody home and as much as this hurts my heart to have to make a nearly impossible decision today I know what I have to do [Music] [Music] 7 s while you accept this Rose gentlemen Jen it's the final Rose when you're ready [Music] [Music] [Music] Marcus Marcus will you accept this Rose love to [Music] Jonathan I am so sorry take your time and when you're ready you can say your goodbyes I love you man love see you how are you doing been better yeah I think the the hardest part about this is uh being a slowburn was my fault through and through um My Own Worst Enemy and uh I know it doesn't help our situation now but I was just on a walk along the beach last night and just found these chairs that Overlook the ocean and just needed a second to think you know in the whole time I was sitting there thinking I found all the clarity that I needed and uh there was nobody that I wanted to be sitting there with more than [Music] you and it hit me that you know I took too long to realize that you know that's a realize how incredible you are the things you've taught me just about myself and what I expect and want from a partner moving forward is just I think you were perfect for me and I wasn't perfect for you and that's a really hard pill for me to swallow I mean our relationship was based off of a friendship at first and I've never really had that before being able to truly be myself with somebody and I want you know how much I truly appreciated that because you've taught me a lot too and I mean that I appreciate it yeah you have two great guys down there and I really hope you find exactly what you're looking for thank you you deserve it thank you you're absolutely [Music] incredible all right ready no but yeah no [Music] okay thank you for everything [Music] to [Music] I'm just mad at myself if I could have gotten there sooner this I could have done better I could have been better I could see an amazing future with this [Music] girl and I feel like the biggest idiot in the world because something amazing was right in front of me and I was too much of my own enemy just to see it until I was too late I'm just tired of standing in my own way [Music]