because in 20 years what what will you what will you remember oh I was able to do that but now I'm not I don't want to run anymore I don't want to be in the M I'm not passionated about that well okay I did that but I'm still there and I'm still so happy and so passionated to do that and for me is the most important thing that okay remaining joyful about the whole exp I just want to be there in in five or 10 years with my kids and to say okay I'm so happy to share with you this Looper mumbl you know kids I was there in Silverton like 20 years ago and now I'm still there review and I'm able to make the loop of night work ah it's I think it's my biggest dream actually even more than winning again a race just to be there in 10 years and to say okay I'm there and I can share it with you it's wow this is for me the most important thing