like my whole life is all about accountability like how can I get better you know um so right now um I have family members who are cops we we've had conversations um yes I I will say I could have been better you know I could have let down my window you know in that instant but um the thing about me is man I don't I I don't want attention I don't I don't want to be like camera out phones on you you know in that moment but um at the end of the day um you know I'm I'm human I got to I got to follow rules I got to you know um do what you know um every everyone else would do you know so now does that give them the right to literally beat the dog out of me absolutely not but at the end of the day um I wish I could go back and you know do things a bit differently yeah I mean there's always always things you can do you know I think that's our we are conditioned here um and what we talk about every day is things that that you can improve upon you know and I think it's important to say that I mean that's a a totally separate um totally separate conversation than I think uh should be the one focused on at hand