so these were Baywatch Studio shots that we did I think it looks like a school portrait like when they put you in front of the backdrop you know Baywatch has had a big impact on my life because it's that show that never goes away any TV show you're watching anybody's on the beach you hear Baywatch reference anybody in a red bathing suit you hear a Baywatch reference you know I've really grown to love it I didn't love it so much when I was on it cuz it wasn't the show I thought it was and I just wasn't comfortable um with my sexuality yet I wanted it to be sporty and more athletic and so it it taught me a lot to grow and to evolve with things and accept things after bayw Watch docy series it's been great to be able to go back to the show in a in a happy fun loving way okay I love this where did you guys find this um so I was about four years old and um my mom suddenly found herself a housewife and heard about P beauty pageants and looked at me and was like oh you're doing this and I was not that kid I was like the kid climbing a tree I was the kid digging holes in the yard getting screamed at and um so I did these beauty pageant so that I could swim in all the pools at all the venues that they held them at that was like that was our trade-off and I won I won Little Miss Universe which was televised and the host saying to me and that's kind of what kicked off my career so this this is me and my daughter with the no hate Campaign which um I felt so grateful to be able to bring her to do that because um of course that's how I raise my children and so I think I just feel like this is so iconic and it's such a good representation of um who I am as a mother and how I teach my children and um and who they are I don't know I think it starts with birth and you just never have these weird conversations or bad conversations and people are naturally accepting I think wow okay treatment when I got my diagnosis um I felt like you couldn't be more alone in the world because there's nothing anybody can do for you you are going to go through this alone um Everybody Dies alone and um it's it it hit me hard I felt like if I feel like this other people might feel like this and I wanted to make it more comfortable to talk about and not taboo and not you know I didn't want to hide anything anybody that has been diet diagnosed you know the the treatment is just it's so Advanced these days and this is not a death sentence and um I think that keeping a healthy positive U mindset has a lot to do with it I think you just got to keep living live your best life all the way through it even even when you're doing the treatments no just keep living and keep keep occupied keep being productive so that you feel good about yourself and just have faith