oh man I'm so jealous I'm so I can't after I after I after I give birth I'm gonna just have my husband bring me a pack is in immediately immediately nicotine's the best for writing for working for everything it's great for a lot of things it's just the delivery methods are problematic I had a problem with vaping for a while like it was bad I'd be in public with multiple Vapes sitting and I was like cat you can't you're you're you can't be doing that those are so addictive they're so addictive I I I was one of the first Vapors I quit for I'm serious I I quit my buddy Adam has one of them robot things lunch boxes I had a laboratory in my house it was like it was like I was seeing all my liquids it was like what is the benefit of having like a big box Vape there's it just rips harder I used to love to blow fat clouds I was out I was I went I had to get a dental procedure done something something super minor whatever like a deep I couldn't Vape for 24 hours I put so many nicotine patches on my body and I still didn't even feel anything it should have killed me or at least made me throw up the amount and I was like ah and then I still kept vaping damn I eventually when I quit vaping and I was using pouches to help me quit vaping and I was using 12 milligram pouches like I try those I can't do it I start hiccuping I have to put them away oh yeah most people almost have a [ __ ] heart attack most decent people which is why I'm saying I had a problem and I quit now I got down to six and now zero obviously cuz of baby I like threes yeah I can't wait I want to get six I'm going to I can't wait I'm going to be in that hospital bed I'm going to be like like I can't wait but you can't cuz it'll get in the milk that's what I I can can you pump and dump right you're going to be pumping out you're going to be pumping out nicotine for sure okay but is it okay I'm going to I'm going to try no I'm going to try to breastfeed okay you should definitely breastfeed I know I should but it's like I've already had N9 months of no nicotine that's the thing that's the hardest for me yeah but once you've kicked it you should probably try to keep it off no I think I think about nicotine every day like every day were you have a cigarette smoker in college I smoke when I drank and in college I drank a lot cuz I was in cuz I was in college okay and so then vaping comes along when vaping comes along probably so when I was like uh mid 20s and I did it for eight years whoa and do you start with like regular Vapes that you buy at the gas station and move your way up to robots I started with the blue sigs and then they just weren't hitting hard enough for me anymore I was ripping multiple blue sigs and then I love the jewel I love I I mean so there's these things in Detroit called breezes I know if you can get them other places but I know you can get them and I'm from the Detroit area and I was having I don't know my this is illegal so I should probably shouldn't say this but uh my brother may have been sending shipments in to me you know when they were illegal in New York cuz the breezes were the best why were they illegal in New York for a while um well they weren't sold in New York but for a while there was supposed to be the jewels rather the jewels were illegal in New York and then we weren't sure about what was going to be legal in New York cuz do you remember that when they made Jewel pods illegal I don't cuz they they I don't think they ever became illegal in California but they did make them the mango ones cuz I was flavored ones hilarious and that was my [ __ ] the mango Jewel when you get a fresh one and it makes that crackling sound and honestly if I found a mango Jew pod somewhere in my house like I would I don't no not when I'm pregnant that's the thing that sucks is like I love this baby so much that I've not even met yet that's wonderful nothing it's it's like so real Comm I know but it's so weird for my brand to love this I I never thought I'd have kids I never thought I never wanted to and then I now I'm like my baby's the size of a cucumber you know well you're doing the right thing by not feeding it jewels of course really think so of course but I'm going to go back you have to go back in your mind yes wow I'm a better both my books I wrote on nicotine I had nicotine gum in my I just want to like have something in my job what what is the side effects that they think can happen to kids like premature birth I think oh boy really bad stuff bad on really bad ones and is that from smoking or is that from I'm really limit I mean I can't it's like you can't really do stimulants when you're pregnant you can't do you can't do anything when you're pregnant I could have 200 milligrams of caffeine a day so is being off of um caffeine hard or is it being you can have 200 milligrams of caffeine a day so is the being off the stimulus is that the hardest or is that's harder than nicotine see I don't know cuz I've always done them together and so did you have to wean yourself off or did you go cold turkey as soon as you knew I had to go cold turkey cuz I I yeah so what was that like I was a [ __ ] for how long a couple weeks it was really rough wow because uh because you have to like sort of like your equilibrium has to come back yeah well I had a doctor tell me that I probably couldn't get pregnant without medication that if I took medication I would have a 10% chance of getting pregnant naturally as they say the sex way I was just living my life and then I didn't feel good and then I took a test and I was like here we go and we wanted kids we were we're planning on starting IVF and um so I just quit everything cold turkey at once wow